Gaillardia aristata: Blanket-flower
By Matilde Flores
Trituration Proving
Toronto Canada
October 25, 2012.
Two female provers and one male prover; Ages 42-65.
Master Prover: Jan Scholten
Natural History:
This is one of three proving that were conducted simultaneously in Toronto, Canada. The plant was procured from a private home garden in Buffalo NY.
Kingdom Plantae
Sub-kingdom Tracheobionta
Super-division Spermatophyta
Division Magnoliophyta
Class Magnoliopsida
Subclass Asteridae
Order Asterales
Family Asteraceae
Genus Gaillardia Foug.
Species Gaillardia aristata Pursh - blanket-flower
Gaillardia aristata is known by the common names of common blanket-flower and common gaillardia. This perennial wildflower is native to much of northern and western North America, where it grows in many habitats.
It reaches maximum heights of 20-70 centimeters (7.9-28 inches). It has lance-shaped leaves near the base and several erect, naked stems holding the flowers. The flower head has a center of brownish to reddish disc florets and a fringe of ray florets that are about one to three cm. long and yellow to reddish with dark bases.
Uses:
Some Plateau Indian tribes used blanket-flower to treat wounds and fevers.[1]
Gaillardia aristata is a widely cultivated ornamental plant, used as a perennial garden flower.
References:
http://plants.usda.gov/java/profile?symbol=GAAR
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gaillardia_aristata
1.^ Hunn, Eugene S. (1990). Nch'i-Wana, "The Big River": Mid-Columbia Indians and Their Land. University of Washington Press. p. 353. ISBN 0-295-97119-3.
Photo: Wikimedia
Toronto Canada
October 25, 2012.
Two female provers and one male prover; Ages 42-65.
Master Prover: Jan Scholten
Natural History:
This is one of three proving that were conducted simultaneously in Toronto, Canada. The plant was procured from a private home garden in Buffalo NY.
Kingdom Plantae
Sub-kingdom Tracheobionta
Super-division Spermatophyta
Division Magnoliophyta
Class Magnoliopsida
Subclass Asteridae
Order Asterales
Family Asteraceae
Genus Gaillardia Foug.
Species Gaillardia aristata Pursh - blanket-flower
Gaillardia aristata is known by the common names of common blanket-flower and common gaillardia. This perennial wildflower is native to much of northern and western North America, where it grows in many habitats.
It reaches maximum heights of 20-70 centimeters (7.9-28 inches). It has lance-shaped leaves near the base and several erect, naked stems holding the flowers. The flower head has a center of brownish to reddish disc florets and a fringe of ray florets that are about one to three cm. long and yellow to reddish with dark bases.
Uses:
Some Plateau Indian tribes used blanket-flower to treat wounds and fevers.[1]
Gaillardia aristata is a widely cultivated ornamental plant, used as a perennial garden flower.
References:
http://plants.usda.gov/java/profile?symbol=GAAR
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gaillardia_aristata
1.^ Hunn, Eugene S. (1990). Nch'i-Wana, "The Big River": Mid-Columbia Indians and Their Land. University of Washington Press. p. 353. ISBN 0-295-97119-3.
Photo: Wikimedia
Commentary:
I planted Gaillardia aristata in my garden about six years ago and I love how profusely it blooms and how colorful it is. It reminded me of Mexican huipiles (wipiles), the colorful traditional garment worn by indigenous women in Mexico and Central America, so I gave it the name “Frida Kahlo.” I was happy to see that the plant was among the plants to be proven before the plant seminar by Jan Scholten in Toronto and I decided I wanted to supervise the proving of Gaillardia.
On arriving in Toronto I found out that a few days before The Art Gallery of Ontario has opened the show “Frida and Diego: Passion, Politics and Painting.”
The provers were allowed to choose the plant they wanted to work with and the three people that came with me felt attracted to Gaillardia. They did not know the story of Frida Kahlo, yet the feelings that started to emerge even before someone inquired about Kahlo's story were: deep “mournful yearning”, broken heart, broken structures, broken bones and images of pools of fresh blood. Survival, passion and search for self-meaning and healing were also strong themes.
At the beginning of C3 – Third round of trituration – Jan, who had been to the exhibit the day before, brought into the room the book: Frida Hahlo: Retrospective, by Helga Prignitz-Poda; et.al., Prestel, NY, ISBN 978-3-7913-5010-3. Throughout this part of the proving the provers looked through the book and were amazed to realize that the themes that were coming through in the proving were confirmed by the artist’s paintings.
My sense is that the nature of this substance is a strong survival instinct. The shadow side of that is the apprehension about not being able to survive the strong challenges that threaten the inner and outer integrity of being. Not surviving means disconnection, loneliness and loss. To make it through the challenges will require finding and holding onto the inner fire.
According to Jan Scholten's Plant System:
666-44.12 Gaillardia
Series: Lanthanide of the lanthanide series.
Clade: Angiospermae; Asteranae; Campanulidae; Asterales; Asteraceae; Heliantheae; gaillardia
Phase: 4; sub-phase 4
Stage: 12
I planted Gaillardia aristata in my garden about six years ago and I love how profusely it blooms and how colorful it is. It reminded me of Mexican huipiles (wipiles), the colorful traditional garment worn by indigenous women in Mexico and Central America, so I gave it the name “Frida Kahlo.” I was happy to see that the plant was among the plants to be proven before the plant seminar by Jan Scholten in Toronto and I decided I wanted to supervise the proving of Gaillardia.
On arriving in Toronto I found out that a few days before The Art Gallery of Ontario has opened the show “Frida and Diego: Passion, Politics and Painting.”
The provers were allowed to choose the plant they wanted to work with and the three people that came with me felt attracted to Gaillardia. They did not know the story of Frida Kahlo, yet the feelings that started to emerge even before someone inquired about Kahlo's story were: deep “mournful yearning”, broken heart, broken structures, broken bones and images of pools of fresh blood. Survival, passion and search for self-meaning and healing were also strong themes.
At the beginning of C3 – Third round of trituration – Jan, who had been to the exhibit the day before, brought into the room the book: Frida Hahlo: Retrospective, by Helga Prignitz-Poda; et.al., Prestel, NY, ISBN 978-3-7913-5010-3. Throughout this part of the proving the provers looked through the book and were amazed to realize that the themes that were coming through in the proving were confirmed by the artist’s paintings.
My sense is that the nature of this substance is a strong survival instinct. The shadow side of that is the apprehension about not being able to survive the strong challenges that threaten the inner and outer integrity of being. Not surviving means disconnection, loneliness and loss. To make it through the challenges will require finding and holding onto the inner fire.
According to Jan Scholten's Plant System:
666-44.12 Gaillardia
Series: Lanthanide of the lanthanide series.
Clade: Angiospermae; Asteranae; Campanulidae; Asterales; Asteraceae; Heliantheae; gaillardia
Phase: 4; sub-phase 4
Stage: 12
Prover’s Impressions in the Presence of the Plant:
2:C1 The sun in the sky.
Jan:C1 Open, bright, clear, as opposed to heavy. It is also about a clear mind.
2:C1 Moldy smell.
Jan:C1 Nice green smell
2:C1 Calming effect.
3:C1 Beautiful, happy, sunshine smile.
2:C1 The sun in the sky.
2:C1 By looking at the leaves I thought they were going to be really soft, but when you touch them they are gritty like a cat’s tongue.
Jan:C1 Trusting.
Jan:C1 Yesterday I saw The Frida Kahlo show. She said that there were two major happenings in her life. One was the accident and the other one was Diego Rivera. At another moment she said: “He was my biggest love.”
Jan:C1 Diego Rivera said that Frida Kahlo was also his biggest love but that he realized how much he loved her only after she died. He also said that she was sharp as acid, tough as metal and very refined in her senses about what she could perceive.
In her paintings she expresses something almost otherworldly about pain and beauty. Some people call it surreal but she called it “my reality”
Frida and Diego held many gatherings of friends, artists and politicians - people in the Communist Party.
1:C1 The flowers are so beautiful with that striking center.
3:C1 I am not an artist but I would paint this flower...that red in the center.
3:C1 How beautiful it would be to have a painting of these flowers.
3:C1 I like that my shirt matches the center of the flower. When you have a proving and everybody is wearing something of the same color as the plant; that is something!
2:C1 It is a happy plant. I have a happy feeling. I think is the yellow color. It reminds you of sunflowers, sunshine. It is great and happy.
3:C1 It is so warm in the sunshine (as she stands in front of the window).
Jan:C2 Frida Kahlo is the expression of this plant.
Strength in Surviving/Confidence:
Jan:C2 Powerful flower, lots of strength
2:C2 The plant feels like a survivor. It does not matter what goes on you will come out the other side ok.
3:C2 There has to be something about the plant being a perennial. Perennial plants are different than annuals.
1:C2 That feeling of apprehension giving way to confidence.
3:C2 Stage 10 or just a bit to the right.
3:C2 I never thought I would be able to start my own practice and it just happened that I found an amazing space that I can afford in a group practice, and a person that I treated while at the Baylight School is now referring her friends to me. I feel really confident now about being a Homeopath.
3:C2 I am thinking about the movie “The Day After Tomorrow,’ people in NYC standing around the barrel that holds the fire. The movie was about global warming. The weather becomes increasingly violent with intense winds and rains, causing Manhattan streets to become flooded knee-deep in a mix of rainwater, saltwater, and sewage. It will be bitter cold...so cold you will perish instantly. This young man and his friends tried the subway but it is closed because of the floods and they are trying to get shelter. They stand around the fire burning in the barrel as homeless people do to warm themselves up and then move on and when moving on, a woman perished with her child and later on they all perished. Thinking about the circle and the people, the image in my head is something like a copper fire pit, with a small ring, and the copper brings me back to the blood.
2:C3 One of the paintings depicts a person with roots in place of legs. The roots of a tree convey the idea of being grounded and rooted.
2:C3 It is a survival thing. The plant that comes out on top of the root is going to make it no matter what. I feel you are right (to 3) it is moving towards that richness and a wealth that is stage 10 or stage 11.
2:C3 I still think it is a strong stable plant. It will keep thriving no matter how many times you cut it back, it will come out on top of its game, cannot be broken down.
Fire/Inner Fire or Inner Source/Spiritual/Passion
3:C1 This remedy will be something about light and fire.
1:C1 Vision of tribal people, maybe in Africa sitting around a wood fire talking about daily things. Some are joking. “How was your day? What did you do today?” Conversations at the end of the day about what happened during the day in a communal gathering.
1:C1 The fire is kind of like a decision: The burning truth. Once you make the decision you are fine. There is the burning truth. Getting there creates the apprehension.
3:C1 Now I feel the opposite of heavy.
1:C2 It’s like an inner strength. You know how the fire moves up as if pulling in the resources into that burning interior? It is not a reckless fire; it is a sort of the burning bush. It has qualities to it. It is productive.
3:C2 I was waiting for you to say productive.
1:C2 I say burning bush because when a fire is built you stack the wood in a pyramid shape. This is not like that at all; it is round like this (pointing to the plant).
3:C2 Pulls a flower from the plant to show him and he says:
1:C2 I Like that. It is not a regular fire - it does not burn down. It continues.
2:C2 As in eternal fire?
1:C2 Something like that. The flames are orange with red in it. It is like that (shows the flower) instead of the petal you have people. It is the same fire we talked about earlier.
3:C2 I am thinking about the movie “The Day After Tomorrow,’ people in NYC standing around the barrel that holds the fire. The movie was about global warming. The weather becomes increasingly violent with intense winds and rains, causing Manhattan streets to become flooded knee-deep in a mix of rainwater, saltwater, and sewage. It will be bitter cold...so cold you will perish instantly. This young man and his friends tried the subway but it is closed because of the floods and they are trying to get shelter. They stand around the fire burning in the barrel as homeless people do to warm themselves up and then move on and when moving on, a woman perished with her child and later on they all perished. Thinking about the circle and the people, the image in my head is something like a copper fire pit, with a small ring, and the copper brings me back to the blood.
1:C2 The quality of the conversation around the fire I see is therapeutic. You come back from hunting and, after being active; you talk to your community around the fire reviewing what happened. It is like an African tribe.
3:C2 My mother and father, grandmother and I would gather around the fire, the light source, in our sweatshirts. We sit in our rockers and I loved the fire. I stoked the fire and mother would cook marshmallows. Wonderful experience to be with those people, talking about things you might not hear about unless you are sitting with them by the fire. Just as we are sitting now around the plant.
3:C2 It is interesting also how we have invited the technology with us. Typically we don’t want it here around the proving, but now the I Phone is at the center of the table, keeping time, like the fire at the center.
1:C2 I am realizing that the center of the fire is red like the center of the flower and the petals are symbolic of the people around the fire.
1:C2 Blood is a resource and is the essence of life, if you want, you need it to live and it is also fiery.
3:C2 Feeling of heartburn and I am attracted to that word now because it has the heart and the fire.
3:C3 This plant is not as light as I thought. There is a lot of suffering in this (looking at Book on Frida Kahlo). I am not religious but what comes to me is drinking from the chalice of blood, bringing God or Source, or whatever into you. Somehow drinking from that blood of life. Blood is the source of life and God, Christ is spirit source for you.
1:C3 Having the resources to sustain life...The Inner fire. It is about tapping into your inner resources: the fire to repair. It is soul repair at the deep level.
3:C3 It has to do with the fire, bringing fire and light into oneself. Frida's passion found an expression through her art. She found another passion; the solution is about finding another passion.
2:C3 That brings back the religious aspect: Passion, Easter, Crucifixion and Resurrection. His structure is repaired. Frida has all these images of nails in her paintings.
3:C3 I like your crucifixion analogy.
3:C3 I am focusing now on the yellow in the flower - the community around the flame. The red at the center is the fire around the heart, the structure from the inside. If you left your inner structure you get it from the outside, from the community. The fire you are seeing, the blood and the structure are very connected.
2:C3 I still think it is a strong stable plant. It will keep thriving no matter how many times you cut it back, it will come out on top of its game, cannot be broken down.
3:C3 How is it doing that? There something about it that is making it resilient. It is in the blood. I don’t know what I mean by that, but that is all I want to say. It is about passion. Get your juices flowing something that will get your juices flowing, different for every body. Find a passion and find a fire. Where the fire is inside and outside of you. Fire is the passion.
1:C3 That can be the soul that you are trying to get back to. Come back to the fire.
3:C3 Romance itself needs that fire, and you feel so good in that warm rich relationship that the soul is present there, as opposed to when that is not there.
Blood/Birth/Nurturing Resource:
3:C1 I get a perception of blood. The center of the plant and the color of my shirt reminds me of blood, blood, blood...Deep, red, thick blood. And I am not a bloody person, but that is what I am thinking. The flow of the blood...Cholesterol came to mind...Pumping blood... Circulatory system.
3:C1 Sanguine... I love that word. The way the plant is dripping makes me think of dripping blood.
3:C1 Now I get an image of blood dripping from your knife too (to Prover 1). This is quite cool. Oh wow! I am into having that beautiful conversation by the fire. I am having the blood dripping from the knife, not any urge to stab or anything. It is the after effect...the movie scene, the blood dripping form a knife. It is not me and it is not hurting me. It is a happy plant (laughs very hard). I am seeing the results of it. Maybe there is a reason that we need to bleed. Maybe it is surgery or something like that, as opposed to murder, or hurting. I have pondered that for a while.
3:C1 (laughing hard) I like this blood, not how vampires love blood. This is kind of fun. I am having a good time. I don’t want to drink it, but I am not frightened by it or disturbed by it. It is beautiful.
3:C2 I was thinking of Bordeaux red. Thinking of the color of the wine and the blood.
3:C2 The knife is not about killing; it may be surgical, it has blood in it, but not with malice.
3:C2 I went to the bathroom thinking of blood and thinking that blood has protein in it. Protein and blood have a richness to it. The color and the thickness of what I am seeing (Laughs). The taste and the smell of it is rich. I did not want to say this (laughs). It is kind of cool.
3:C2 It is not watery blood. It is this rich, pure, healthy blood. When I visualize it it’s not the straight material; it is so thick.
3:C2 I think about blood and bone marrow...That rich thick stuff, hmmm. It usually tastes coppery. This blood I am seeing is not the simple blood from a little tiny cut. It is pretty powerful stuff. It is not the blood from a rare piece of meat either, which is not like this rich, thick stuff. I see a pool of thick blood (Laughs); this is not the normal me at all. But it is not a bad feeling.
3:C2 That weakness I felt, not tired necessarily but physically weak, empty, not enough energy and we talked also about being very dry. Loss of blood makes you very weak; you need the blood to pump to make you stronger.
1:C2 The blood is a resource. It is the essence of life, if you wish, and you need that to live. It is also fiery.
3:C2 Something to do with the circulatory system.
2:C3: The blood is nurturing blood that is supposed to be for the baby. It is rich, core blood that allows the baby to survive, even if the mother dies.
1:C3 That is the placenta. (looking at Kahlo’s book).
2:C3 It is a surviving thing. The plant that comes out on top of the root is going to make it no matter what. I feel you are right (to 3) it is moving towards that richness and a wealth that is stage 10 or stage 11. There is so much childbirth in this book. Here is one birth and a baby (pointing at a painting in the book).
3:C3 I am not religious but what comes to me is drinking from the chalice of blood, bringing God or Source, or whatever into you. Somehow drinking from that blood of life. Blood is the source of life and God, Christ is spirit source for you.
3:C3 The blood is fluid, not clotting.
2:C3 It is not stagnant, it is moving.
3:C3 Such a vision! Very thick, not dry, but it might be blood that is drying, becoming thicker, but it is fresh. It has that flowing aspect and it is fresh from a body; there is light in it. It is outside of where it should be...I do not see it flowing in veins. It is right in my face. I cannot see the edges of it except when dripping from a knife. It is beautiful, a deep red color.
1:C3 She had her first miscarriage in 1930, and she had many miscarriages. When you (to prover 3) had the idea of the blood you could not relate it to anything in particular.
3:C3 It is life giving, not about killing.
1:C3 The idea of yearning, of longing, has something to do with what one cannot have something out of our reach. It means that the blood that we saw is a resource and maybe the knife relates to being between having a relationship vs. no relationship.
3:C3 I am thinking about childbirth. That is in my head. You do not make that decision and that is why you are bleeding. If you stay in that middle you can get cut. There is ambivalence between one way and the other way.
2:C3 I still think it is a strong stable plant. It will keep thriving no matter how many times you cut it back, it will come out on top of its game, cannot be broken down.
3:C3 How is it doing that? There something about it that is making it resilient. It is in the blood, I don’t know what I mean by that, but that is all I want to say. It is about passion. Get your juices flowing...something that will get your juices flowing? It is different for every one. Find a passion and find a fire. Where the fire is inside and outside of you. Fire is the passion.
3:C3 It is a mournful longing, but you do not do anything about it, you just continue in that place of despair.
You don’t know what to do about it. There is this romantic longing. Maybe you long for the fire.
1:C3 That can be the soul that you are trying to get back to. Come back to the fire.
3:C3 Romance itself needs that fire, and you feel so good in that warm rich relationship that the soul is present there, as opposed to when that is not there.
Mournful Longing/Broken Heart/Loss:
1:C1 Something to do with the soul; the soul is hurt: a fractured soul.
3:C2 Though the feeling is heavy, it is not a very dark remedy or a dark substance. I feel a very deep feeling... depression would be too strong a word. I am not sure that it is sadness, but a deep mournful longing. It is not desire as in sexual desire or wanting something, but just a longing for something lost.
It is a mournful longing that is related to either something lost or something you have been searching for and not being able to find. Longing for a lost love or a waiting for a love that has not appeared.
It is not necessarily sad - there is no crying. It is a woeful expression, a yearning. That is a good word for it. It is a yearning that is somewhat heavy, but not quite grief. A lost love that has not died, cast away and gone away a great distance, so you cannot be together. It is more a soul connection that has not come to you, or that you cannot find...A sigh, something missing that you cannot reach, but that you really want. It is a deep red feeling. There is depth and substance to it.
Jan:C2 (continuing with Frida Kahlo’s story)...She married Diego Rivera in 1929. She was 20 years his junior. She was saddened by his many infidelities, including an affair with her sister Cristina. As a reaction to that betrayal Kahlo cut off most of her long dark hair. She suffered several miscarriages that some describe as additional heartbreaks. She and Rivera went through periods of separation. She also had affairs with men and women.
3:C3 There is a picture in the book of a woman with a sheet over her head. It seems to be about a woman that died in childbirth.
1:C3 The problem is that she (Frida) loved him (Diego) and he did not realized it or loved her back. He did not realize how much he loved her until she had died.
2:C3 A broken heart...Look at the painting “Without Hope” where she is in bed and vomiting out all the stuff. That is the mournful longing.
3:C3 It is a mournful longing, but you do not do anything about it, you just continue in that place of despair.
You don’t know what to do about it. There is this romantic longing. Maybe you long for the fire. There is romance, the red, the yellow, the fire, the candle light and the wine aspect; I can see all that romance.
1:C3 That can be the soul that you are trying to get back to. Come back to the fire.
3:C3 Romance itself needs that fire, and you feel so good in that warm rich relationship that the soul is present there, as opposed to when that is not there.
1:C3 If you cannot have that...when you are longing for love you long for meaning and purpose. It can be all of it. When you look for another person you are looking for meaning in life.
1:C3 The spouse was philandering and she was suffering at the level of the soul.
3:C3 Not necessarily, it can be death (the losses). There is something unfulfilled there.
Structures/Broken Structures/Broken Bones:
3:C2 Something about structure. I am making these lines at the bottom of the bowl as I triturate and scrape and it is forming a grid. To have strength is about having structure I think; maybe this is how it relates to bones and joints. Broken structures. It is also about the inner strength and inner structure about having structure in your life.
2:C2 What is the Frida Kahlo Story?
Jan:C2 She had polio at the age of 6. At 18 she had a horrible accident where the bus she was riding on collided with a trolley car. She broke her spinal column, a collarbone, a few ribs, her pelvis, had several fractures in her right leg, crushed her right foot, and an iron handrail pierced her abdomen and uterus.
She was studying to be a Medical Doctor and could not continue because she was in so much pain. She became a painter as a result. There is a lot of blood in her paintings.
3:C3 I am focusing now on the yellow in the flower - the community around the flame. The red at the center is the fire around the heart, the structure from the inside. If you left your inner structure you get it from the outside, from the community. The fire you are seeing, the blood and the structure are very connected.
1:C3 Look at “The Broken Column” on Page 147. She is open from the front with a view of the spine broken and mended with nails.
Lost Identity/Anxiety/Apprehension/Indecision:
1:C1 I was apprehensive at the beginning of the proving; I felt a little anxiety, but now I feel calm. The anxiety is about what is going to happen, about the unknown. There is angst and even a feeling of guilt about something. I don’t know what that is about. I took off work to come here and I felt guilty about that.
1:C1 The fire is kind of like a decision: The burning truth. Once you make the decision you are fine. There is the burning truth. Getting there creates the apprehension.
1:C1 I had a feeling I ought to do this. It is very easy to make a decision. You go or you do not go. I was on the fence in a way. It feels more like being on a knife’s edge because once you make a decision you are in it. You can easily go one way or the other way. When you make a decision you will be staying balanced on that fine line.
You cannot stay on the knife. You have to take a decision one way or the other. It is the opposite of procrastination here you say yes or no.
1:C1 The fire is kind of a decision: The burning truth. Once you make the decision you are fine. There is the burning truth. Getting there creates the apprehension.
1:C3 The flower lost its identity somehow. Not being one way or the other way. What are we? Which way are we? There is irresolution: you cannot choose “shall I go left or right?” It is something very deep and it is not even a choice. It is how things turn out. Your greatest fears become realized when you become something that causes your partner to not be able to be with you.
3:C3 I am thinking about childbirth. That is in my head. You do not make that decision; that is why you are bleeding. If you stay in that middle you can get cut. There is ambivalence between one way and the other way.
3:C3 Mournful longing, but you do not do anything about it, you just continue in that place of despair.
3:C3 She (Frida) has a beautiful sketch of her lady parts, which is interesting. For the 1940’s she was very on the edge.
1:C3 In looking at the photographs and the paintings Frida had some male characteristics that were pronounced, as the mustache and the uni-brow. Her hormonal system was not in balance.
A Picture depicts a heart framing a face. Half of the face is hers and the other half is Diego’s. The first impression I get before I identify the faces, is confusion of gender identity that is the problem.
Connected/Disconnected/Not knowing one’s self or one’s strength:
3:C2 I don’t know why people don’t do provings all the time. It comes to show how incredibly connected we are. I am in the real world you know, away from that special connection and I could not reach out for that connection, until I participated in the first provings and now I am: What? Are you are speaking to me?
3:C2 When I started doing homeopathy I did not think I belonged with these people. I always thought they were granola, but they were talking about gardening and raising their own chicken. I am a technology person. After a while I realized that my role in the world is to bridge that gap between the techno people I work with and the gardeners. I fit in the middle. I’m a liaison. I can hook you up because you need that one.
2:C2 Before the proving I was telling M. that we went off the grid with the kids and they were having such a hard time letting go of the technology. When all that is not there you connect with your family in a different way.
3:C2 Interesting to be able to do that. I like the life and the luxury we have. To people that say “I want to live off the grid” I say, have fun. I will come and visit. But I am not ready to leave it, though I do not like how many cars are around. I like to move away from people and be in the mountains, but don’t want it to happen for too long.
2:C2 I live in a remote area and we like it there. It is good for us.
3:C2 Do you have TV and cable?
2:C2 No, we don’t have cable, just TV Nothing too exciting.
Jan:C2 What is the problem of this plant. What is the state?
1:C2 Lack of community
1:C2. Being alone, not connected.
3:C2 Not knowing one self. Lack of confidence, not knowing your strength or that you have a strength. Feeling unable to burn brightly. Pull yourself together and stand up.
1:C2 Not part of a community, not being able to express yourself.
3:C2 It goes along with the feeling I have in the throat/chest: lack of a voice, constricted there.
1:C2 A drought, no resources.
Color:
3:C1 I like that my shirt matches the color of the center of the flower. When you have a proving and everybody is wearing something of the same color as the plant that is something!
2:C1 It is a happy plant. I have a happy feeling. I think is the yellow color. It reminds you of sunflowers, sunshine. It is great and happy
3:C2 My husband is in fabrics and all the mills are producing now is beige. He is telling them we need more color. We need lots of color in our lives. The candy red cars are coming back, which is great because for a while we had all these beiges and grays. We need more bold colors in our lives.
Jan:C2 I like that color, it is Bordeaux red.
3:C2 I was thinking of Bordeaux red. Thinking of the color of the wine and the blood.
3:C3 It is a deep red feeling. There is depth and substance.
3:C3 Amazing colors in this book.
Clarity/brightness:
Jan:C1 Bright, clear as opposed to heavy. A clear mind.
1:C:1 Clear in my thoughts and calmer.
3:C1 I don’t feel light I feel pretty heavy. Not lightening, oh!
3:C2 Bright and bold.
Rhythm/Quiet/Calm:
1:C1 Clear in my thoughts and calmer.
3:C1 Falling into a rhythm.
2:C1 I have a very serene feeling, a lot of serenity about this, feels very calm.
3:C2 Again back to rhythmic quiet spot. We have conversation and giggle and then back to peaceful and quiet. We have been in both of those places.
2:C2 Really quiet (Unusual for her).
Miscellaneous:
3:C3 The remedy is not for a homeless person. There is an elegance to this.
Physical:
Generalities:
3:C1 Dryness from upper chest to the jaw and mouth. Tightness.
3:C1 This is not as much fun as it is supposed to be. I feel weak, not as if passing out weak, not really tired, more like a physical lessening of energy. Do not want to lift anything. I know it is all cool but.
2:C2 A lot of bone stuff for me.
3:C2 Yawning a lot.
Note: During C1 and C2 all the provers felt dehydrated and need to drink water constantly.
Head:
3:C1 Pressure in the right temple.
3:C2 A burning pain at the top of my head, more burning than anything, better with pressure on the skull, not a headache.
Eyes:
1:C1 Sensation on the right eye, won’t call it a pain but sort of
2:C1 Slight headache over the right eye; circumscribed over the eye.
3:C1 Pressure in the right temple area with right eye contracting.
Face:
2:C1 Very serious expression.
2:C1 Red face.
2:C2 Pain at the crease of the smile. Leveled with the lower part of the nose.
Mouth:
3:C1 Having phlegm into my mouth but getting rid of it easily.
2:C2 Pin-point pain on the right TMJ - clicking when opening mouth.
Throat:
3:C1 Suffocation, not being able to breathe.
3:C2 Constriction
Stomach:
3:C1 Burping, not easy swallowing and tightness in chest.
3:C1 Now I am having a little bit of reflux.
3:C2 Feeling of heartburn and I am attracted to that word now because it has the heart and the fire. More burning than I’ve ever gotten. Ii know it will be released.
1:C2 Heart burn right in the center below the sternum.
Abdomen:
3:C2 Constriction in the solar plexus under the rib cage, more on the left, but I am sitting leaning that way.
Chest:
Jan:C1 Oppression in chest and needing to take a deep breath.
3:C1 Burping, not easy swallowing and tightness in the chest.
2:C2 Fluttery feeling in my heart.
Respiration:
3:C1 Fear of suffocation that I will not be able to breathe.
1:C1 Sigh
Jan:C1 Sigh
Jan:C1 Oppression in chest and needing to take a deep breath.
Extremities:
3:C1 The muscles in the hand get tired.
2:C1 Sharp pain on the left ankle right at the malleolus, started abruptly and still there.
2:C1 Right knee has been giving me grief, but got better yesterday, Now getting the same kind of pain as I had in the left ankle. It is a joint thing. You want to stretch it and get it back in place.
3:C1 Right shin pinpoint pain, not quite stabbing. It did go away shortly. It was right in the middle of the shin.
2:C2 For me a lot of joint pain.
Perspiration:
3:C1 I am sweaty, which is not unusual.
Skin:
3:C1 I am itchy in the head and right temple.
1:C1 (Rubbing back against the back of the chair) I was itchy before, but this is very strong.
1:C1 (Scratching incessantly) I am really itchy. (Everybody laughs) He scratches his head.
Final comment:
Jan Scholten: The Asteraceae family has strong lanthanide and carbon qualities. So the themes of finding your own self, the spiritual search; is a Lanthanide aspect. Wanting to have it reflected in the outside world is a carbon aspect. When you look at Frieda’s paintings you are looking at the inner world, not the outer world, which is a lanthanide theme.
2:C1 The sun in the sky.
Jan:C1 Open, bright, clear, as opposed to heavy. It is also about a clear mind.
2:C1 Moldy smell.
Jan:C1 Nice green smell
2:C1 Calming effect.
3:C1 Beautiful, happy, sunshine smile.
2:C1 The sun in the sky.
2:C1 By looking at the leaves I thought they were going to be really soft, but when you touch them they are gritty like a cat’s tongue.
Jan:C1 Trusting.
Jan:C1 Yesterday I saw The Frida Kahlo show. She said that there were two major happenings in her life. One was the accident and the other one was Diego Rivera. At another moment she said: “He was my biggest love.”
Jan:C1 Diego Rivera said that Frida Kahlo was also his biggest love but that he realized how much he loved her only after she died. He also said that she was sharp as acid, tough as metal and very refined in her senses about what she could perceive.
In her paintings she expresses something almost otherworldly about pain and beauty. Some people call it surreal but she called it “my reality”
Frida and Diego held many gatherings of friends, artists and politicians - people in the Communist Party.
1:C1 The flowers are so beautiful with that striking center.
3:C1 I am not an artist but I would paint this flower...that red in the center.
3:C1 How beautiful it would be to have a painting of these flowers.
3:C1 I like that my shirt matches the center of the flower. When you have a proving and everybody is wearing something of the same color as the plant; that is something!
2:C1 It is a happy plant. I have a happy feeling. I think is the yellow color. It reminds you of sunflowers, sunshine. It is great and happy.
3:C1 It is so warm in the sunshine (as she stands in front of the window).
Jan:C2 Frida Kahlo is the expression of this plant.
Strength in Surviving/Confidence:
Jan:C2 Powerful flower, lots of strength
2:C2 The plant feels like a survivor. It does not matter what goes on you will come out the other side ok.
3:C2 There has to be something about the plant being a perennial. Perennial plants are different than annuals.
1:C2 That feeling of apprehension giving way to confidence.
3:C2 Stage 10 or just a bit to the right.
3:C2 I never thought I would be able to start my own practice and it just happened that I found an amazing space that I can afford in a group practice, and a person that I treated while at the Baylight School is now referring her friends to me. I feel really confident now about being a Homeopath.
3:C2 I am thinking about the movie “The Day After Tomorrow,’ people in NYC standing around the barrel that holds the fire. The movie was about global warming. The weather becomes increasingly violent with intense winds and rains, causing Manhattan streets to become flooded knee-deep in a mix of rainwater, saltwater, and sewage. It will be bitter cold...so cold you will perish instantly. This young man and his friends tried the subway but it is closed because of the floods and they are trying to get shelter. They stand around the fire burning in the barrel as homeless people do to warm themselves up and then move on and when moving on, a woman perished with her child and later on they all perished. Thinking about the circle and the people, the image in my head is something like a copper fire pit, with a small ring, and the copper brings me back to the blood.
2:C3 One of the paintings depicts a person with roots in place of legs. The roots of a tree convey the idea of being grounded and rooted.
2:C3 It is a survival thing. The plant that comes out on top of the root is going to make it no matter what. I feel you are right (to 3) it is moving towards that richness and a wealth that is stage 10 or stage 11.
2:C3 I still think it is a strong stable plant. It will keep thriving no matter how many times you cut it back, it will come out on top of its game, cannot be broken down.
Fire/Inner Fire or Inner Source/Spiritual/Passion
3:C1 This remedy will be something about light and fire.
1:C1 Vision of tribal people, maybe in Africa sitting around a wood fire talking about daily things. Some are joking. “How was your day? What did you do today?” Conversations at the end of the day about what happened during the day in a communal gathering.
1:C1 The fire is kind of like a decision: The burning truth. Once you make the decision you are fine. There is the burning truth. Getting there creates the apprehension.
3:C1 Now I feel the opposite of heavy.
1:C2 It’s like an inner strength. You know how the fire moves up as if pulling in the resources into that burning interior? It is not a reckless fire; it is a sort of the burning bush. It has qualities to it. It is productive.
3:C2 I was waiting for you to say productive.
1:C2 I say burning bush because when a fire is built you stack the wood in a pyramid shape. This is not like that at all; it is round like this (pointing to the plant).
3:C2 Pulls a flower from the plant to show him and he says:
1:C2 I Like that. It is not a regular fire - it does not burn down. It continues.
2:C2 As in eternal fire?
1:C2 Something like that. The flames are orange with red in it. It is like that (shows the flower) instead of the petal you have people. It is the same fire we talked about earlier.
3:C2 I am thinking about the movie “The Day After Tomorrow,’ people in NYC standing around the barrel that holds the fire. The movie was about global warming. The weather becomes increasingly violent with intense winds and rains, causing Manhattan streets to become flooded knee-deep in a mix of rainwater, saltwater, and sewage. It will be bitter cold...so cold you will perish instantly. This young man and his friends tried the subway but it is closed because of the floods and they are trying to get shelter. They stand around the fire burning in the barrel as homeless people do to warm themselves up and then move on and when moving on, a woman perished with her child and later on they all perished. Thinking about the circle and the people, the image in my head is something like a copper fire pit, with a small ring, and the copper brings me back to the blood.
1:C2 The quality of the conversation around the fire I see is therapeutic. You come back from hunting and, after being active; you talk to your community around the fire reviewing what happened. It is like an African tribe.
3:C2 My mother and father, grandmother and I would gather around the fire, the light source, in our sweatshirts. We sit in our rockers and I loved the fire. I stoked the fire and mother would cook marshmallows. Wonderful experience to be with those people, talking about things you might not hear about unless you are sitting with them by the fire. Just as we are sitting now around the plant.
3:C2 It is interesting also how we have invited the technology with us. Typically we don’t want it here around the proving, but now the I Phone is at the center of the table, keeping time, like the fire at the center.
1:C2 I am realizing that the center of the fire is red like the center of the flower and the petals are symbolic of the people around the fire.
1:C2 Blood is a resource and is the essence of life, if you want, you need it to live and it is also fiery.
3:C2 Feeling of heartburn and I am attracted to that word now because it has the heart and the fire.
3:C3 This plant is not as light as I thought. There is a lot of suffering in this (looking at Book on Frida Kahlo). I am not religious but what comes to me is drinking from the chalice of blood, bringing God or Source, or whatever into you. Somehow drinking from that blood of life. Blood is the source of life and God, Christ is spirit source for you.
1:C3 Having the resources to sustain life...The Inner fire. It is about tapping into your inner resources: the fire to repair. It is soul repair at the deep level.
3:C3 It has to do with the fire, bringing fire and light into oneself. Frida's passion found an expression through her art. She found another passion; the solution is about finding another passion.
2:C3 That brings back the religious aspect: Passion, Easter, Crucifixion and Resurrection. His structure is repaired. Frida has all these images of nails in her paintings.
3:C3 I like your crucifixion analogy.
3:C3 I am focusing now on the yellow in the flower - the community around the flame. The red at the center is the fire around the heart, the structure from the inside. If you left your inner structure you get it from the outside, from the community. The fire you are seeing, the blood and the structure are very connected.
2:C3 I still think it is a strong stable plant. It will keep thriving no matter how many times you cut it back, it will come out on top of its game, cannot be broken down.
3:C3 How is it doing that? There something about it that is making it resilient. It is in the blood. I don’t know what I mean by that, but that is all I want to say. It is about passion. Get your juices flowing something that will get your juices flowing, different for every body. Find a passion and find a fire. Where the fire is inside and outside of you. Fire is the passion.
1:C3 That can be the soul that you are trying to get back to. Come back to the fire.
3:C3 Romance itself needs that fire, and you feel so good in that warm rich relationship that the soul is present there, as opposed to when that is not there.
Blood/Birth/Nurturing Resource:
3:C1 I get a perception of blood. The center of the plant and the color of my shirt reminds me of blood, blood, blood...Deep, red, thick blood. And I am not a bloody person, but that is what I am thinking. The flow of the blood...Cholesterol came to mind...Pumping blood... Circulatory system.
3:C1 Sanguine... I love that word. The way the plant is dripping makes me think of dripping blood.
3:C1 Now I get an image of blood dripping from your knife too (to Prover 1). This is quite cool. Oh wow! I am into having that beautiful conversation by the fire. I am having the blood dripping from the knife, not any urge to stab or anything. It is the after effect...the movie scene, the blood dripping form a knife. It is not me and it is not hurting me. It is a happy plant (laughs very hard). I am seeing the results of it. Maybe there is a reason that we need to bleed. Maybe it is surgery or something like that, as opposed to murder, or hurting. I have pondered that for a while.
3:C1 (laughing hard) I like this blood, not how vampires love blood. This is kind of fun. I am having a good time. I don’t want to drink it, but I am not frightened by it or disturbed by it. It is beautiful.
3:C2 I was thinking of Bordeaux red. Thinking of the color of the wine and the blood.
3:C2 The knife is not about killing; it may be surgical, it has blood in it, but not with malice.
3:C2 I went to the bathroom thinking of blood and thinking that blood has protein in it. Protein and blood have a richness to it. The color and the thickness of what I am seeing (Laughs). The taste and the smell of it is rich. I did not want to say this (laughs). It is kind of cool.
3:C2 It is not watery blood. It is this rich, pure, healthy blood. When I visualize it it’s not the straight material; it is so thick.
3:C2 I think about blood and bone marrow...That rich thick stuff, hmmm. It usually tastes coppery. This blood I am seeing is not the simple blood from a little tiny cut. It is pretty powerful stuff. It is not the blood from a rare piece of meat either, which is not like this rich, thick stuff. I see a pool of thick blood (Laughs); this is not the normal me at all. But it is not a bad feeling.
3:C2 That weakness I felt, not tired necessarily but physically weak, empty, not enough energy and we talked also about being very dry. Loss of blood makes you very weak; you need the blood to pump to make you stronger.
1:C2 The blood is a resource. It is the essence of life, if you wish, and you need that to live. It is also fiery.
3:C2 Something to do with the circulatory system.
2:C3: The blood is nurturing blood that is supposed to be for the baby. It is rich, core blood that allows the baby to survive, even if the mother dies.
1:C3 That is the placenta. (looking at Kahlo’s book).
2:C3 It is a surviving thing. The plant that comes out on top of the root is going to make it no matter what. I feel you are right (to 3) it is moving towards that richness and a wealth that is stage 10 or stage 11. There is so much childbirth in this book. Here is one birth and a baby (pointing at a painting in the book).
3:C3 I am not religious but what comes to me is drinking from the chalice of blood, bringing God or Source, or whatever into you. Somehow drinking from that blood of life. Blood is the source of life and God, Christ is spirit source for you.
3:C3 The blood is fluid, not clotting.
2:C3 It is not stagnant, it is moving.
3:C3 Such a vision! Very thick, not dry, but it might be blood that is drying, becoming thicker, but it is fresh. It has that flowing aspect and it is fresh from a body; there is light in it. It is outside of where it should be...I do not see it flowing in veins. It is right in my face. I cannot see the edges of it except when dripping from a knife. It is beautiful, a deep red color.
1:C3 She had her first miscarriage in 1930, and she had many miscarriages. When you (to prover 3) had the idea of the blood you could not relate it to anything in particular.
3:C3 It is life giving, not about killing.
1:C3 The idea of yearning, of longing, has something to do with what one cannot have something out of our reach. It means that the blood that we saw is a resource and maybe the knife relates to being between having a relationship vs. no relationship.
3:C3 I am thinking about childbirth. That is in my head. You do not make that decision and that is why you are bleeding. If you stay in that middle you can get cut. There is ambivalence between one way and the other way.
2:C3 I still think it is a strong stable plant. It will keep thriving no matter how many times you cut it back, it will come out on top of its game, cannot be broken down.
3:C3 How is it doing that? There something about it that is making it resilient. It is in the blood, I don’t know what I mean by that, but that is all I want to say. It is about passion. Get your juices flowing...something that will get your juices flowing? It is different for every one. Find a passion and find a fire. Where the fire is inside and outside of you. Fire is the passion.
3:C3 It is a mournful longing, but you do not do anything about it, you just continue in that place of despair.
You don’t know what to do about it. There is this romantic longing. Maybe you long for the fire.
1:C3 That can be the soul that you are trying to get back to. Come back to the fire.
3:C3 Romance itself needs that fire, and you feel so good in that warm rich relationship that the soul is present there, as opposed to when that is not there.
Mournful Longing/Broken Heart/Loss:
1:C1 Something to do with the soul; the soul is hurt: a fractured soul.
3:C2 Though the feeling is heavy, it is not a very dark remedy or a dark substance. I feel a very deep feeling... depression would be too strong a word. I am not sure that it is sadness, but a deep mournful longing. It is not desire as in sexual desire or wanting something, but just a longing for something lost.
It is a mournful longing that is related to either something lost or something you have been searching for and not being able to find. Longing for a lost love or a waiting for a love that has not appeared.
It is not necessarily sad - there is no crying. It is a woeful expression, a yearning. That is a good word for it. It is a yearning that is somewhat heavy, but not quite grief. A lost love that has not died, cast away and gone away a great distance, so you cannot be together. It is more a soul connection that has not come to you, or that you cannot find...A sigh, something missing that you cannot reach, but that you really want. It is a deep red feeling. There is depth and substance to it.
Jan:C2 (continuing with Frida Kahlo’s story)...She married Diego Rivera in 1929. She was 20 years his junior. She was saddened by his many infidelities, including an affair with her sister Cristina. As a reaction to that betrayal Kahlo cut off most of her long dark hair. She suffered several miscarriages that some describe as additional heartbreaks. She and Rivera went through periods of separation. She also had affairs with men and women.
3:C3 There is a picture in the book of a woman with a sheet over her head. It seems to be about a woman that died in childbirth.
1:C3 The problem is that she (Frida) loved him (Diego) and he did not realized it or loved her back. He did not realize how much he loved her until she had died.
2:C3 A broken heart...Look at the painting “Without Hope” where she is in bed and vomiting out all the stuff. That is the mournful longing.
3:C3 It is a mournful longing, but you do not do anything about it, you just continue in that place of despair.
You don’t know what to do about it. There is this romantic longing. Maybe you long for the fire. There is romance, the red, the yellow, the fire, the candle light and the wine aspect; I can see all that romance.
1:C3 That can be the soul that you are trying to get back to. Come back to the fire.
3:C3 Romance itself needs that fire, and you feel so good in that warm rich relationship that the soul is present there, as opposed to when that is not there.
1:C3 If you cannot have that...when you are longing for love you long for meaning and purpose. It can be all of it. When you look for another person you are looking for meaning in life.
1:C3 The spouse was philandering and she was suffering at the level of the soul.
3:C3 Not necessarily, it can be death (the losses). There is something unfulfilled there.
Structures/Broken Structures/Broken Bones:
3:C2 Something about structure. I am making these lines at the bottom of the bowl as I triturate and scrape and it is forming a grid. To have strength is about having structure I think; maybe this is how it relates to bones and joints. Broken structures. It is also about the inner strength and inner structure about having structure in your life.
2:C2 What is the Frida Kahlo Story?
Jan:C2 She had polio at the age of 6. At 18 she had a horrible accident where the bus she was riding on collided with a trolley car. She broke her spinal column, a collarbone, a few ribs, her pelvis, had several fractures in her right leg, crushed her right foot, and an iron handrail pierced her abdomen and uterus.
She was studying to be a Medical Doctor and could not continue because she was in so much pain. She became a painter as a result. There is a lot of blood in her paintings.
3:C3 I am focusing now on the yellow in the flower - the community around the flame. The red at the center is the fire around the heart, the structure from the inside. If you left your inner structure you get it from the outside, from the community. The fire you are seeing, the blood and the structure are very connected.
1:C3 Look at “The Broken Column” on Page 147. She is open from the front with a view of the spine broken and mended with nails.
Lost Identity/Anxiety/Apprehension/Indecision:
1:C1 I was apprehensive at the beginning of the proving; I felt a little anxiety, but now I feel calm. The anxiety is about what is going to happen, about the unknown. There is angst and even a feeling of guilt about something. I don’t know what that is about. I took off work to come here and I felt guilty about that.
1:C1 The fire is kind of like a decision: The burning truth. Once you make the decision you are fine. There is the burning truth. Getting there creates the apprehension.
1:C1 I had a feeling I ought to do this. It is very easy to make a decision. You go or you do not go. I was on the fence in a way. It feels more like being on a knife’s edge because once you make a decision you are in it. You can easily go one way or the other way. When you make a decision you will be staying balanced on that fine line.
You cannot stay on the knife. You have to take a decision one way or the other. It is the opposite of procrastination here you say yes or no.
1:C1 The fire is kind of a decision: The burning truth. Once you make the decision you are fine. There is the burning truth. Getting there creates the apprehension.
1:C3 The flower lost its identity somehow. Not being one way or the other way. What are we? Which way are we? There is irresolution: you cannot choose “shall I go left or right?” It is something very deep and it is not even a choice. It is how things turn out. Your greatest fears become realized when you become something that causes your partner to not be able to be with you.
3:C3 I am thinking about childbirth. That is in my head. You do not make that decision; that is why you are bleeding. If you stay in that middle you can get cut. There is ambivalence between one way and the other way.
3:C3 Mournful longing, but you do not do anything about it, you just continue in that place of despair.
3:C3 She (Frida) has a beautiful sketch of her lady parts, which is interesting. For the 1940’s she was very on the edge.
1:C3 In looking at the photographs and the paintings Frida had some male characteristics that were pronounced, as the mustache and the uni-brow. Her hormonal system was not in balance.
A Picture depicts a heart framing a face. Half of the face is hers and the other half is Diego’s. The first impression I get before I identify the faces, is confusion of gender identity that is the problem.
Connected/Disconnected/Not knowing one’s self or one’s strength:
3:C2 I don’t know why people don’t do provings all the time. It comes to show how incredibly connected we are. I am in the real world you know, away from that special connection and I could not reach out for that connection, until I participated in the first provings and now I am: What? Are you are speaking to me?
3:C2 When I started doing homeopathy I did not think I belonged with these people. I always thought they were granola, but they were talking about gardening and raising their own chicken. I am a technology person. After a while I realized that my role in the world is to bridge that gap between the techno people I work with and the gardeners. I fit in the middle. I’m a liaison. I can hook you up because you need that one.
2:C2 Before the proving I was telling M. that we went off the grid with the kids and they were having such a hard time letting go of the technology. When all that is not there you connect with your family in a different way.
3:C2 Interesting to be able to do that. I like the life and the luxury we have. To people that say “I want to live off the grid” I say, have fun. I will come and visit. But I am not ready to leave it, though I do not like how many cars are around. I like to move away from people and be in the mountains, but don’t want it to happen for too long.
2:C2 I live in a remote area and we like it there. It is good for us.
3:C2 Do you have TV and cable?
2:C2 No, we don’t have cable, just TV Nothing too exciting.
Jan:C2 What is the problem of this plant. What is the state?
1:C2 Lack of community
1:C2. Being alone, not connected.
3:C2 Not knowing one self. Lack of confidence, not knowing your strength or that you have a strength. Feeling unable to burn brightly. Pull yourself together and stand up.
1:C2 Not part of a community, not being able to express yourself.
3:C2 It goes along with the feeling I have in the throat/chest: lack of a voice, constricted there.
1:C2 A drought, no resources.
Color:
3:C1 I like that my shirt matches the color of the center of the flower. When you have a proving and everybody is wearing something of the same color as the plant that is something!
2:C1 It is a happy plant. I have a happy feeling. I think is the yellow color. It reminds you of sunflowers, sunshine. It is great and happy
3:C2 My husband is in fabrics and all the mills are producing now is beige. He is telling them we need more color. We need lots of color in our lives. The candy red cars are coming back, which is great because for a while we had all these beiges and grays. We need more bold colors in our lives.
Jan:C2 I like that color, it is Bordeaux red.
3:C2 I was thinking of Bordeaux red. Thinking of the color of the wine and the blood.
3:C3 It is a deep red feeling. There is depth and substance.
3:C3 Amazing colors in this book.
Clarity/brightness:
Jan:C1 Bright, clear as opposed to heavy. A clear mind.
1:C:1 Clear in my thoughts and calmer.
3:C1 I don’t feel light I feel pretty heavy. Not lightening, oh!
3:C2 Bright and bold.
Rhythm/Quiet/Calm:
1:C1 Clear in my thoughts and calmer.
3:C1 Falling into a rhythm.
2:C1 I have a very serene feeling, a lot of serenity about this, feels very calm.
3:C2 Again back to rhythmic quiet spot. We have conversation and giggle and then back to peaceful and quiet. We have been in both of those places.
2:C2 Really quiet (Unusual for her).
Miscellaneous:
3:C3 The remedy is not for a homeless person. There is an elegance to this.
Physical:
Generalities:
3:C1 Dryness from upper chest to the jaw and mouth. Tightness.
3:C1 This is not as much fun as it is supposed to be. I feel weak, not as if passing out weak, not really tired, more like a physical lessening of energy. Do not want to lift anything. I know it is all cool but.
2:C2 A lot of bone stuff for me.
3:C2 Yawning a lot.
Note: During C1 and C2 all the provers felt dehydrated and need to drink water constantly.
Head:
3:C1 Pressure in the right temple.
3:C2 A burning pain at the top of my head, more burning than anything, better with pressure on the skull, not a headache.
Eyes:
1:C1 Sensation on the right eye, won’t call it a pain but sort of
2:C1 Slight headache over the right eye; circumscribed over the eye.
3:C1 Pressure in the right temple area with right eye contracting.
Face:
2:C1 Very serious expression.
2:C1 Red face.
2:C2 Pain at the crease of the smile. Leveled with the lower part of the nose.
Mouth:
3:C1 Having phlegm into my mouth but getting rid of it easily.
2:C2 Pin-point pain on the right TMJ - clicking when opening mouth.
Throat:
3:C1 Suffocation, not being able to breathe.
3:C2 Constriction
Stomach:
3:C1 Burping, not easy swallowing and tightness in chest.
3:C1 Now I am having a little bit of reflux.
3:C2 Feeling of heartburn and I am attracted to that word now because it has the heart and the fire. More burning than I’ve ever gotten. Ii know it will be released.
1:C2 Heart burn right in the center below the sternum.
Abdomen:
3:C2 Constriction in the solar plexus under the rib cage, more on the left, but I am sitting leaning that way.
Chest:
Jan:C1 Oppression in chest and needing to take a deep breath.
3:C1 Burping, not easy swallowing and tightness in the chest.
2:C2 Fluttery feeling in my heart.
Respiration:
3:C1 Fear of suffocation that I will not be able to breathe.
1:C1 Sigh
Jan:C1 Sigh
Jan:C1 Oppression in chest and needing to take a deep breath.
Extremities:
3:C1 The muscles in the hand get tired.
2:C1 Sharp pain on the left ankle right at the malleolus, started abruptly and still there.
2:C1 Right knee has been giving me grief, but got better yesterday, Now getting the same kind of pain as I had in the left ankle. It is a joint thing. You want to stretch it and get it back in place.
3:C1 Right shin pinpoint pain, not quite stabbing. It did go away shortly. It was right in the middle of the shin.
2:C2 For me a lot of joint pain.
Perspiration:
3:C1 I am sweaty, which is not unusual.
Skin:
3:C1 I am itchy in the head and right temple.
1:C1 (Rubbing back against the back of the chair) I was itchy before, but this is very strong.
1:C1 (Scratching incessantly) I am really itchy. (Everybody laughs) He scratches his head.
Final comment:
Jan Scholten: The Asteraceae family has strong lanthanide and carbon qualities. So the themes of finding your own self, the spiritual search; is a Lanthanide aspect. Wanting to have it reflected in the outside world is a carbon aspect. When you look at Frieda’s paintings you are looking at the inner world, not the outer world, which is a lanthanide theme.
This is the actual plant that was proven!
