Acanthocephala terminalis: Leaf Footed Bug
Master Prover: Patricia Maher Co-Master Prover: Shahin Afnan
Natural History
Order Hemiptera (True Bugs, Cicadas, Hoppers, Aphids and Allies)
Suborder Heteroptera (True Bugs)
Superfamily Coreoidea
Family Coreidae (Leaf-footed Bugs)
Also known as: leaf-footed bug, squash bug, clown bug, tip-wilter
Acanthocephala or Leaf footed Bugs are distinctive, nearly inch-long stately insects in the Coreidae family. Leaf footed bugs are named for the leaf-like expansions of the hind tibia and femora. They have four-segmented antennae, large compound eyes and one pair of ocelli, or simple eyes. The Latin name Acanthocephala means “spiny head.”
All species of Coreidae are plant-feeders. Some Coreids live in leaf litter, but most nymphs and adults live above ground on their host plants where they may feed on seeds, fruits, stems or leaves. Many occur on an astonishing variety of plants, while some are restricted to a single host, such as the squash bug, known for its destructive feeding on cucurbitaceae.
These insects have a distinctive proboscis, a “hypodermic-like” beak. “Like all true bugs, the adults are equipped with a beak, or rostrum, a hypodermic needle-like device carried under the head, which it uses to pierce the plant tissue and suck out liquids. They do not simply "suck out sap" they inject a tissue-dissolving saliva and vacuum out the resulting slurry. Bugs cannot ingest solid food, and widespread damage to the plant is a result of these liquefying enzymes. “ [emphasis added.]
Acanthocephala are a common species found on many trees and shrubs along woodland margins and meadows. Favored host plants include hickory, goldenrod, boneset, and Joe-Pye weed. The bugs have been frequently observed on bird droppings, and laboratory studies suggest they probe the droppings with their mouth parts, but it is not known whether or not they actually ingest any of the material. These bugs have one generation per year. Adults pass the winter. Eggs are produced in late spring and early summer. There are five nymphal instars.
Their range includes eastern US and southern Ontario west to Colorado and Texas.
When handled or molested, they often give off a strong and sometimes unpleasant odor, a defensive secretion of the thoracic glands; the active compounds are mostly straight-chain aldehydes and ketones. cis-3-Hexenal, also known as (Z)-3-hexenal and leaf aldehyde, is colorless liquid and an aroma compound with an intense grassy-green odor of freshly cut green grass and leaves. It is one of the major volatile compounds in ripe tomatoes. It is also a pheromone in many insect species.
Proving
The specimen was captured after the Master Prover found it in her home in Boston MA in November 2010. This insect presented itself in her house twice in a few days. (Acanthocephala commonly make their way indoors in the fall…) It was identified as Acanthocephala terminalis using Kauffman’s Guide to North American Insects, and the identification was confirmed by the geographic distribution of the species. It is the only Acanthocephala known north of North Carolina and Oklahoma.
The Master Prover and fellow homeopath and Great Lakes Protocol developer Carol Jones triturated it to a 3C level to stabilize it for proving at a later time.
Initial trituration
The odor of freshly mown grass was distinct when the specimen was crushed in preparation for the initial trituration.
During the initial trituration to the 3C, the feeling was light and child-like, happy- go -lucky. The physical sensations were focused on the digestive organs, with a great deal of nausea, stomach upset, burping, farting, and extreme hunger. There was also trouble with communication and numbers during the trituration. Afterwards, Jones had an experience of getting lost which was quite panic-inducing in which she had no ability to sense direction or navigate and felt trapped. (Please see trituration notes at end of this document.)
Great Lakes Proving of Acanthocephala terminalis
One year later the Master Prover conducted a proving in Akron, OH according to the Great Lakes Protocol, but with a difference: the group triturated from a 3c to 6c. After the trituration, provers took a dose of the potentized 12c and recorded symptoms for 14 days. The provers were three women, aged 55, 47, and 35; one African American, one Iranian-British, and one Euro American. The provers did not know the identity of the substance.
N.B.: The Great Lakes Protocol team was interested in testing out the efficacy of triturating from a 3C to a 6C since if one is in the field and collects a live specimen – one subject to decay -- it is difficult to conduct a proving on the spot. One does need to triturate it to a 3C within 24 hours to stabilize it. We needed to know if the Great Lakes Protocol would be as effective triturating from a 3C to a 6C as it is from medicating potency to 3C. This proving shows that it is.
Commentary
The seemingly random appearance of this bug in the Master Prover’s home has led to a surprisingly meaningful proving. The sense of lightness and childishness that appeared in the initial trituration is but one polarity of a remedy whose themes touch on invasiveness, vaccinations, AIDS, zombies, and death.
During the trituration, there was a discussion about forced vaccinations (“the stuff in vaccinations is worse than the disease”). Then the discussion went to AIDS/HIV in Africa, concerning people in Malawi or Nigeria being forced at gunpoint to vaccinate. This led to the topic of former South Africa President Thabo Mbeki challenging the dominant western view about the origins of AIDS, and seeing poverty as a cofactor in the AIDS epidemic. Provers talked about Jacques Pepin’s new book The Origins of AIDS which had just come out that same week. In this book epidemiologist Pepin traces the roots of AIDS in Africa back to the colonial health program of vaccinations in the early part of the 20th century. After careful analysis of colonial European health records, Pepin concludes that vaccinating with repeated use of glass syringes actually spread HIV from the blood of a colonial European infected with the simian virus to the indigenous West African population. The trituration discussion also touched on the prevalence of AIDS in Haiti.
Themes of death, zombies, horror, and the Grim Reaper appear in the provers’ dreams after the 12c was taken.
In the trituration the provers also talked about transgressing psychic boundaries, and about protection from the evil eye. One prover drew a picture of an eye during the trituration.
Another main theme of this remedy is shit. Shit and eating shit were talked about in the trituration, and many proving symptoms centered on the bowels and rectum.
The “Clown Bug”: Acanthocephala as The Clown
The light, child-like feeling of the initial 3C trituration stands in sharp contrast to the themes that emerged in the 6C trituration and the subsequent proving of the 12C. This contradiction is the key to understanding the remedy -- the child-like “not a care in the world” sentiment back- to -back with the discussion of AIDS in Africa, epidemics, vaccinations at gunpoint, and dreams of death and the Grim Reaper. (The vaccination aspect is easier to understand given that the bug’s beak is like a needle!)
One of common names of Acanthocephala is “Clown Bug,” although it is more commonly known as “Leaf Footed Bug.” Clowns are associated with child-like behavior, and yet they can also have a more sinister edge. They can have a trickster aspect.
In Yoruba religious traditions of West Africa and religions of the African diaspora, one of the central deities (orishas) is Eshu/Elegba, the guardian of the crossroads, or the arbiter of good fortune or misfortune, life or death. A deity with a dual face like Hermes/Mercury, their realms are similar. One the one hand Elegba is often represented as a playful child, and yet its other side is Eshu, a messenger to the Underworld, or a representation of Death itself.
As the Clown Bug, Acanthocephala encompasses both ends of the spectrum, from childlike gaiety to the Grim Reaper, or more aptly, a conveyor of death in the guise of innocence…. For example, the French and Belgian public health officials described by Pepin in west Africa who brought illness and death with a benevolent demeanor. Homeopath Louis Klein has spoken about insects and the concept of “benevolence” – a kind of “I know what’s best for you” attitude and not a true generosity of spirit. This is an insect, after all, a bug which appears benign but which feeds on plants by injecting destructive saliva into them and the sucking out vital fluids. Homeopathically, bugs are…well, buggy. They get in our space. (The Master Prover just experienced months of a squash bug invasion in her home – squash bugs are a close cousin of the Leaf-footed Bug. These handsome bugs were quietly hanging out everywhere… even on her toothbrush!)
This is a remedy for someone who seems nice and well-meaning but who oversteps boundaries in a toxic way. In one of the key dreams during the proving, a prover wrote: “ I was supposed to have boundaries and just advise people in their job, but I got involved and helped them get things done…”
Again, the dreamer seemed to be helpful and benevolent, but in the dream she believes that having boundaries is “bullshit.” She knows what’s best!
Proving Themes
Overstepping Boundaries: Protection from Evil eye/magic/psychics
1: T A healer came to work with people in Cleveland – he would just look at people. Healing through the eyes
2:T --- wears a piece of turquoise
2:T people used to carry an the evil eye amulet.
2: T had a psychic reading last night. Was told be careful not to step on toes.
2: T was the reading a palm reading. You’re a warm person, a lot of warmth around you, be careful of not stepping on people’s toes
3:T used to have a chi gung teacher who would present to lots of people – he would send out energy and they would fall asleep
3: T opposite of the evil eye
3:T all kinds of energy comes out of the eyes
3:T looks like the evil eye… or is it the power of suggestion
not the evil eye, protection from the evil eye.
3: T they tried to vaccinate people in Africa, people forced at gunpoint. Nigeria or Malawi. In Africa they are very suspicious of vaccinations
3: T I had a reading too
Master Prover: T Jacques Pepin book on Origin of AIDS in which it is alleged that vaccinations were the original vector for spreading AIDS in Africa
1:1
I dreamed I was with a group of people, we all belonged to an organization or religion, something like that, or a group that worked together. We were on the beach, gathering driftwood. Then we were in a house and I was getting ready for a date later with my ex [who in real life has died]. I remember he was part of the group. He kissed me lightly on the lips in passing. I was excited, looking forward to more of that later. There was a knock at the door. I opened the door -- a young woman stood there, I was young too in this dream. She had a newspaper clipping which she showed me. Something to do with the ex. She was upset and she said he had lied to her. To backtrack, before I answered the door I was doing some sort of job in this group. I remember thinking, it is bullshit not to try to help people. I was supposed to have boundaries and just advise people in their job, but I got involved and helped them get things done. I woke up at the door.
In the dream, the sensation was that the weather was warm and sunny. Everyone was wearing shorts. It was very pleasant, same pleasant, relaxed feeling.
Overstepping Boundaries: Vaccination/AIDS
2:T germs – not touching anything in a public bathroom.
2: T Malaria vaccine. Stuff in vaccinations worse than disease.
2: T vaccination is not immunization.
3: T they tried to vaccine people in Africa, people forced at gunpoint. Nigeria or Malawi. In Africa they are very suspicious of vaccinations
3-T Thabo Mbeki got into political trouble for questioning AIDS – is it real. He thought it was a reflection of poverty – not a disease on its own. Figures of numbers of cases are inflated to get funding
2: T Because of Haiti’s history of colonization and the AIDS epidemic, it is a place very much in the syphilitic miasm
Master Prover: T Jacques Pepin book on Origin of AIDS in which it is alleged that vaccinations were the original vector for spreading AIDS in Africa
3- T food production -- germ theory as opposed to hygiene theory
Master Prover: T “Contagion” movie.
Death/zombies/horror/the dead
3: T they tried to vaccine people in Africa, people forced at gunpoint. Nigeria or Malawi. In Africa they are very suspicious of vaccinations
1:1
I dreamed I was with a group of people, we all belonged to an organization or religion, something like that, or a group that worked together. We were on the beach, gathering driftwood. Then we were in a house and I was getting ready for a date later with my ex [who in real life has died]. I remember he was part of the group. He kissed me lightly on the lips in passing. I was excited, looking forward to more of that later. There was a knock at the door. I opened the door -- a young woman stood there, I was young too in this dream. She had a newspaper clipping which she showed me. Something to do with the ex. She was upset and she said he had lied to her. To backtrack, before I answered the door I was doing some sort of job in this group. I remember thinking, it is bullshit not to try to help people. I was supposed to have boundaries and just advise people in their job, but I got involved and helped them get things done. I woke up at the door.
In the dream, the sensation was that the weather was warm and sunny. Everyone was wearing shorts. It was very pleasant, same pleasant, relaxed feeling.
2:1 Dream: watching a movie with commercials, at a theater. Dad and son in attached chairs. Dad in front ascending first into the air, up a wire. It felt dangerous, punishment or execution imminent. Watching faces on ascent. Dad’s hand swelled up huge (I knew he was imagining it). Then his face shrunk, narrow, his eyes stayed big. I was thinking, I know this remedy: cherry. The movie mom underneath the chairs – big hands, tiny head. Then a commercial for another movie, a girl, singing “I’m not hot.” She was all made up but hated herself. Also in there visiting at my homeopath, but it was still a movie. A teenage girl isolating herself, cant deal with people, goes to room and says, “I’m desperate enough already.” Her closet is not that of a teen, alarmingly neat, fastidious. I know this remedy again: aurum. We are all worried for her.
2:9 slept poorly, had watched a scary video, not typical for me to watch, a British car commercial that never aired, a ghostly white form around a car. Then they find out a year prior someone had died in that spot. But it is a zombie that jumped out. Restless sleep; awake from 1230 til 2 . Dream of dead body in a lake
3: 5 Dream: while asleep in front of TV tuned in to a horror movie, I was in some unfamiliar place. Went outside, a man was being punished by having to lie down and was stepped on by an elephant, after which his guts spurted out onto the ground. I was being followed by someone who may have been the Grim Reaper, although she looked like one of my students. She wore a sign on her chest that seemed to keep a tally of her wins and losses. Every time I turned around in my dream she was there smiling. I did manage to knock her down and make her fall over something, then I think I got away.
2:9 dream of dead body in a lake
2:11 Dream -- Dream of daughter with water and drowning – usual for me but this had a dead body in the water. In the dream she was freaked out, didn’t want to go into the lake
Shit
1: T when she went upstairs, (during C5) had a BM, had a pain during the BM. Gradually stopped. mid-lower below belly button. Chest pain got stronger as well when she came back to table.
1:T had a bowel movement with pain. Pain in mid lower abdomen below belly button.
2: T a pet dog who eats shit
2: T “I cant do that shit – you’re fucking nuts”
2: T “what is this shit?”
2: T “get your poop in a group”
2: mimics her dog eating shit. Usually he eats his poop at home but not outside. Dogs eat cat poop – “fancy feast”
2: T has similar pain in belly, also has to poop.
2: T same pain below belly button, has to poop
1: post T had 2 bms, might need another
1: post T another bm
2: post T stinky loud toots, gassy and bloatey
2: post T big bowel movement, pungent odor, slower, fuller
1:1 feeling of fullness in rectum all day
1:1 urging for BM, only gas
2:1 bloatey, round “pooch” (on abdomen) since waking, no pain. Stinky toots, like boiled cabbage
2:1 lots of pooping.
1:2 two bowel movements in evening, 2nd one loose with sharp pain in lower mid abdomen while passing stool. Pain stopped gradually over a few minutes
1:2 anus feels sore, left side feels raw
1:2 feeling of fullness in rectum, as if needing a bm
1:3 hemorrhoid
1: 3 hemorrhoids and pressure inside rectum, worsening as day goes on, better sitting, worse walking , pain like a deep cut on L side, worse walking down stairs
1: 4 bleeding hemorrhoids; hemorrhoid very swollen feeling
1: 7 pain on BM, lower abdominal discomfort, like something heavy pressing just above pubic bone
1: 7 pressure in the rectum with lots of stomach growling
Connection
1:1
I dreamed I was with a group of people, we all belonged to an organization or religion, something like that, or a group that worked together. We were on the beach, gathering driftwood. Then we were in a house and I was getting ready for a date later with my ex [who in real life has died]. I remember he was part of the group. He kissed me lightly on the lips in passing. I was excited, looking forward to more of that later. There was a knock at the door. I opened the door -- a young woman stood there, I was young too in this dream. She had a newspaper clipping which she showed me. Something to do with the ex. She was upset and she said he had lied to her. To backtrack, before I answered the door I was doing some sort of job in this group. I remember thinking, it is bullshit not to try to help people. I was supposed to have boundaries and just advise people in their job, but I got involved and helped them get things done. I woke up at the door.
In the dream, the sensation was that the weather was warm and sunny. Everyone was wearing shorts. It was very pleasant, same pleasant, relaxed feeling.
2:1
Dream: watching a movie with commercials, at a theater. Dad and son in attached chairs. Dad in front ascending first into the air, up a wire. It felt dangerous, punishment or execution imminent. Watching faces on ascent. Dad’s hand swelled up huge (I knew he was imagining it). Then his face shrunk, narrow, his eyes stayed big. I was thinking, I know this remedy: cherry. The movie mom underneath the chairs – big hands, tiny head. Then a commercial for another movie, a girl, singing “I’m not hot.” She was all made up but hated herself. Also in there visiting at my homeopath, but it was still a movie. A teenage girl isolating herself, cant deal with people, goes to room and says, “I’m desperate enough already.” Her closet is not that of a teen, alarmingly neat, fastidious. I know this remedy again: aurum. We are all worried for her.
3:10 dreamed of an old friend, had to pursue her to reunite. Had to catch up, she was running away. Called her in real life to invite her to a political event. Following advice of dream, persisted in calling her.
2: post proving
“Why is the leaf footed bug named for its tibia? Leaves are like the antenna of a tree and they connect the tree to the environments, photosynthesis. Plants are about relatedness…”
Getting Lost (see 3C trituration notes at end)
3: 1 last night I dreamed that I and my son were traveling through Amish country to see the ---- where we buy fresh food from. We pass by several other farms to get there and we lose our way. We ask for directions. We were almost there when my son gets stopped. There is some sort of security checkpoint like at an airport and for some reason he got stopped.
Pressing pain/pressure
1:T pressing pain in chest, muscular, makes her want to take a deep breath, pressing pain L quad
2: T abdominal pressure lifted now is back.
2: post T slight center pressure/pain
1:2 chest pain, pressing pain mid chest, both sides, causing me to breathe deeply, to expand lungs and chest
1: 3 hemorrhoids and pressure inside rectum
1:4 pressing HA, started in R eye, R eye is tender. HA is as if someone is squeezing area between eyes
1: 7 pain on BM, lower abdominal discomfort, like something heavy pressing just above pubic bone
1: 7 pressure in the rectum with lots of stomach growling
3: 7 had to have my back walked on by son, felt better overall, better from pressure, like he had squeezed all the ickiness out
Mental/Emotional
2: T self judgment and doubt –am I doing this right?
3:T devoid of thoughts, nothing to talk about
3:T have lost vocabulary.
2: post T spacey, difficulty finding right street
1:1 mood improved, more relaxed, untroubled
3:1 got angry with sister and was crying
3: 1 irritable with people, everything annoys, feeling bugged
3:1 concern about acceptance by other people
1: 2 feeling very calm
1: 2 concerned that stepson is getting stressed out with applying to high level colleges; he has developed a rash; spoke to husband and said he should drop an activity. As usual, husband disagreed, saying I don’t know if he is stressed. Instead of arguing about it as I usually would, I was able to let it go and not feel upset.
2: 2 feel slower, more even
3: 2 melancholy
3: 3 melancholy and irritable, want to cry
3: 5 melancholy and irritable with my kids
3:8 stress had me come into work like a tornado
2: 9 had watched a scary video, not typical for me to watch, a British car commercial that never aired, a ghostly white form around a car. Then they find out a year prior someone had died in that spot. But it is a zombie that jumped out.
Generals
1: T itchy on tip of nose, like little hair
1: T really sleepy
1: T Tired
1: T very relaxed
1:T feeling mesmerized by circular motion
2: T yawning
2: T itchy on mouth, left forehead
3:T thumbnails look whiter, moons look bigger
3: T yawning
3: T chilly
3: T really sleepy
3: T chilly
2:1 slept deeply, some tossing, a single cough woke her
2: 1 restless sleep
2: 3 deep sleep
3: 6 cold all day, unable to get warm
3: 7 slept poorly
3: 7 had to have my back walked on by son, felt better overall, better from pressure, like he had squeezed all the ickiness out
2:9 slept poorly, had watched a scary video, not typical for me to watch, a British car commercial that never aired, a ghostly white form around a car. Then they find out a year prior someone had died in that spot. But it is a zombie that jumped out. Restless sleep; awake from 1230 til 2 . Dream of dead body in a lake
3: 13 low energy
Head
1:4 pressing HA, started in R eye, R eye is tender. HA is as if someone is squeezing area between eyes
2:7 Working on a minor headache now…. Between brows and upward on forehead, kinda to the right side
3:8 head congestion and cold symptoms, ribs sore from sneezing
3: 10 head congestion
3: 11 still congested
3:13 headache, left and right sides
Face/Mouth/Nose/Ear
1: T can taste sweetness in back of nose, roof of mouth
1: T sweet taste in mouth
1: T roof of mouth to back of throat feels swollen, raw
1:T increased swallowing
1: T throat sore on both sides, as if starting a cold
2:T itching on face in creases next to mouth down to chin
3:T nose running, itchy
3:T sensation of water on ear, and stinging on outer Left ear
1: post T pale face
1: post T piercing pain like a pin sticking in front of right septum
1: post T sweet taste in back of mouth with nausea
1: 1 sweet taste like saccharine all day with nausea all day
2: 1 woke with stopped left nostril in night
1: 2 throat raw and had to blow nose, nose runny thin and clear; post nasal drip makes me need to clear throat
1:2 sweet saccharine taste in back of mouth
3:2 very congested in head, scratchy throat
3;3 cold is gone
2:4 woke with blocked L nostril
2:5 woke with blocked L nostril
2:6 Stuffy nose, mostly on L
3:7 sneezed all day
3:7 nose running, esp L side. Painful to sneeze.
2:8 woke with stuffed R nostril
3:8 head congestion and cold symptoms, ribs sore from sneezing
3:10 still head congestion
Eye/Vision
1: T pain in L eye socket and over L eye, moved to eyeball
2: T twitchy left eye
3:T thumbnails look whiter, moons look bigger
2:1 – 2:14 on and off twitchy left eye
1:4 pressing HA, started in R eye, R eye is tender. HA is as if someone is squeezing area between eyes
Throat
1:T stifling a cough, throat feels full
1:T coughing, raw, scraping in throat on Right.
1:T throat feels scraped in center
3:T want to cough, throat feels full
3: post T sore throat
3: 1 sore throat
3:1 congested, scratchy throat, has a cold
1: 2 throat raw and had to blow nose
3:2 very congested in head, scratchy throat
Stomach
1: post T sweet taste in back of mouth with nausea
2: post T still upset stomach
1: 1 sweet taste like saccharine all day with nausea all day
2:1 ice cream craving
2:2 ate a pint of ice cream over 2 nights
Abdomen/Rectum/Stool
1:T had a bowel movement with pain. Pain in mid lower abdomen below belly button.
2:T abdominal pressure, fullness
2: T same pain below belly button, has to poop
3:T pain below belly button, in uterus area, feels digestive
2:T digestive pain, feels like sphincters are doing things
1: post T soreness in left lower quadrant
1: post T had 2 bms, might need another
1: post T another bm
2: post T distension in abdomen, center
2: post T stinky loud toots, gassy and bloatey
2: post T big bowel movement, pungent odor, slower, fuller
2: post T slight center pressure/pain
1:1 feeling of fullness in rectum all day
1:1 urging for BM, only gas
1:1 low abdominal cramping
2:1 bloatey, round “pooch” (on abdomen) since waking, no pain. Stinky toots, like boiled cabbage
2:1 lots of pooping.
1:2 two bowel movements in evening, 2nd one loose with sharp pain in lower mid abdomen while passing stool. Pain stopped gradually over a few minutes
1:2 anus feels sore, left side feels raw
1:2 feeling of fullness in rectum, as if needing a bm
2:2 bloatey, gurgly eructations
1:3 hemorrhoid
1: 3 hemorrhoids and pressure inside rectum, worsening as day goes on, better sitting, worse walking , pain like a deep cut on L side, worse walking down stairs
2: 3 bloatey after dinner
1: 4 bleeding hemorrhoids; hemorrhoid very swollen feeling
1: 7 pain on BM, lower abdominal discomfort, like something heavy pressing just above pubic bone
1: 7 pressure in the rectum with lots of stomach growling
Extremities
1: T left quad pressing pain
3: T left quad pressing pain
3: T quick spasm in L leg, shooting from thigh to knee
3:5 fingers feel as they have paper cuts all over them
3:8 ribs sore from sneezing
3: 12 left wrist pain
3: 13 left wrist and shoulder pain
3: 14 left wrist pain
Chest
1:T pressing pain like something pressing on front of chest, both sides
1:1 more chest pain
1:2 chest pain, pressing pain mid chest, both sides, causing me to breathe deeply, to expand lungs and chest
Cough
3: 5 developed a deep cough that lasted most of evening
3: 6 dry deep cough all day
Dreams
1:1 I dreamed I was with a group of people, we all belonged to an organization or religion, something like that, or a group that worked together. We were on the beach, gathering driftwood. Then we were in a house and I was getting ready for a date later with my ex [who in real life has died]. I remember he was part of the group. He kissed me lightly on the lips in passing. I was excited, looking forward to more of that later. There was a knock at the door. I opened the door -- a young woman stood there, I was young too in this dream. She had a newspaper clipping which she showed me. Something to do with the ex. She was upset and she said he had lied to her. To backtrack, before I answered the door I was doing some sort of job in this group. I remember thinking, it is bullshit not to try to help people. I was supposed to have boundaries and just advise people in their job, but I got involved and helped them get things done. I woke up at the door.
In the dream, the sensation was that the weather was warm and sunny. Everyone was wearing shorts. It was very pleasant, same pleasant, relaxed feeling.
2:1 Dream: watching a movie with commercials, at a theater. Dad and son in attached chairs. Dad in front ascending first into the air, up a wire. It felt dangerous, punishment or execution imminent. Watching faces on ascent. Dad’s hand swelled up huge (I knew he was imagining it). Then his face shrunk, narrow, his eyes stayed big. I was thinking, I know this remedy: cherry. The movie mom underneath the chairs – big hands, tiny head. Then a commercial for another movie, a girl, singing “I’m not hot.” She was all made up but hated herself. Also in there visiting at my homeopath, but it was still a movie. A teenage girl isolating herself, cant deal with people, goes to room and says, “I’m desperate enough already.” Her closet is not that of a teen, alarmingly neat, fastidious. I know this remedy again: aurum. We are all worried for her.
3:1 last night I dreamed that I and my son were traveling through Amish country to see the ---- where we buy fresh food from. We pass by several other farms to get there and we lose our way. We ask for directions. We were almost there when my son gets stopped. There is some sort of security checkpoint like at an airport and for some reason he got stopped.
3: 5 Dream: while asleep in front of TV tuned in to a horror movie, I was in some unfamiliar place. Went outside, a man was being punished by having to lie down and was stepped on by an elephant, after which his guts spurted out onto the ground. I was being followed by someone who may have been the Grim Reaper, although she looked like one of my students. She wore a sign on her chest that seemed to keep a tally of her wins and losses. Every time I turned around in my dream she was there smiling. I did manage to knock her down and make her fall over something, then I think I got away.
2:9 dream of dead body in a lake
3:10 dreamed of an old friend, had to pursue her to reunite. Had to catch up, she was running away. Called her in real life to invite her to a political event. Following advice of dream, persisted in calling her.
2:11 Dream -- Dream of daughter with water and drowning – usual for me but this had a dead body in the water. In the dream she was freaked out, didn’t want to go into the lake
3: 13 dreamed of going through rooms in house and redecorating. House not the same house I live in
Misc
3:8 Found out student in dream is in fact pregnant
Notes from initial 3C trituration:
P’s phone freezes up
Hot and dizzy, nauseous, difficulty reading the clock. Right trap and upper arm are sore, headache-temples
Trouble adding minutes on clock
Big burping!!
Restless
Nauseous, feels like it’s a struggle, uncoordinated, hard to grind, move coordinated.
P is hungry. C is yawning.
Rt side joint muscle pain-rubbing helps-C, right side neck is stiff, better rolling out neck. Feeling content, peaceful calm-C. Heat burping-P. Right top head fleeing pain,
Feeling lightheaded, tired.
P is really hungry, she is grinding and burping… Sensation of P’s mouth is disconnected from her body. That I am all these disparate parts. My arm is disconnected. Hunger but gurgling in my stomach.
Discussing ”whether we suck everything out of the fridge”. Burping and hungry at the same time.
Feeling of rolling in the stomach. Grooving with scraping. Burping lots (big three times)
P feels very unemotional. Wants to go to sleep, wants cucumber.
Prepares a plate of vegetables—cucumbers, carrots, green and red tomatoes, white balsamic vinegar, salt and pepper, feta. Very uncharacteristic. Food tastes really good. Averse red tomato, like green tomatoes, cukes taste especially good.
Food tasted very alive, heightened taste, orgasmic eating. P JUST WANTS TO EAT.
P is burping (we are laughing). Feel a little high. For C the cucumber does not taste great but bitter, old. The noise of the car (outside) is loud and its scares us.
The sun has come out. It is like I don’t have a care in the world (da de da de da de do) (music note drawing). Who cares about anything? Child like
Desires green and white food.
Bopping, childish, young, light
Got cold, had to put on sweater.
Burping, this is a light bug, it feels happy and light. C is sneezing. Moving back and forth, side to side while sitting on my heels. Farting. Itchy right ring finger. Moving up and down—head—very small movements. P is very cold. Having a problem with numbers.
Eating again, yumm!, carrots, rocking, cold.
After the 3C trituration and the two provers parted, one had a panic inducing experience of getting lost. She doubted whether she could find the right street and asked herself, am I doing this right? She couldn't find her way out, and had no ability to sense direction or navigate. She felt trapped-- hence the panic-- that she couldn't find the right street.
The light, child-like feeling of the initial 3C trituration stands in sharp contrast to the themes that emerged in the 6C trituration and the subsequent proving of the 12C. This contradiction is the key to understanding the remedy -- the child-like “not a care in the world” sentiment back- to -back with the discussion of AIDS in Africa, epidemics, vaccinations at gunpoint, and dreams of death and the Grim Reaper. (The vaccination aspect is easier to understand given that the bug’s beak is like a needle!)
One of common names of Acanthocephala is “Clown Bug,” although it is more commonly known as “Leaf Footed Bug.” Clowns are associated with child-like behavior, and yet they can also have a more sinister edge. They can have a trickster aspect.
In Yoruba religious traditions of West Africa and religions of the African diaspora, one of the central deities (orishas) is Eshu/Elegba, the guardian of the crossroads, or the arbiter of good fortune or misfortune, life or death. A deity with a dual face like Hermes/Mercury, their realms are similar. One the one hand Elegba is often represented as a playful child, and yet its other side is Eshu, a messenger to the Underworld, or a representation of Death itself.
As the Clown Bug, Acanthocephala encompasses both ends of the spectrum, from childlike gaiety to the Grim Reaper, or more aptly, a conveyor of death in the guise of innocence…. For example, the French and Belgian public health officials described by Pepin in west Africa who brought illness and death with a benevolent demeanor. Homeopath Louis Klein has spoken about insects and the concept of “benevolence” – a kind of “I know what’s best for you” attitude and not a true generosity of spirit. This is an insect, after all, a bug which appears benign but which feeds on plants by injecting destructive saliva into them and the sucking out vital fluids. Homeopathically, bugs are…well, buggy. They get in our space. (The Master Prover just experienced months of a squash bug invasion in her home – squash bugs are a close cousin of the Leaf-footed Bug. These handsome bugs were quietly hanging out everywhere… even on her toothbrush!)
This is a remedy for someone who seems nice and well-meaning but who oversteps boundaries in a toxic way. In one of the key dreams during the proving, a prover wrote: “ I was supposed to have boundaries and just advise people in their job, but I got involved and helped them get things done…”
Again, the dreamer seemed to be helpful and benevolent, but in the dream she believes that having boundaries is “bullshit.” She knows what’s best!
Proving Themes
Overstepping Boundaries: Protection from Evil eye/magic/psychics
1: T A healer came to work with people in Cleveland – he would just look at people. Healing through the eyes
2:T --- wears a piece of turquoise
2:T people used to carry an the evil eye amulet.
2: T had a psychic reading last night. Was told be careful not to step on toes.
2: T was the reading a palm reading. You’re a warm person, a lot of warmth around you, be careful of not stepping on people’s toes
3:T used to have a chi gung teacher who would present to lots of people – he would send out energy and they would fall asleep
3: T opposite of the evil eye
3:T all kinds of energy comes out of the eyes
3:T looks like the evil eye… or is it the power of suggestion
not the evil eye, protection from the evil eye.
3: T they tried to vaccinate people in Africa, people forced at gunpoint. Nigeria or Malawi. In Africa they are very suspicious of vaccinations
3: T I had a reading too
Master Prover: T Jacques Pepin book on Origin of AIDS in which it is alleged that vaccinations were the original vector for spreading AIDS in Africa
1:1
I dreamed I was with a group of people, we all belonged to an organization or religion, something like that, or a group that worked together. We were on the beach, gathering driftwood. Then we were in a house and I was getting ready for a date later with my ex [who in real life has died]. I remember he was part of the group. He kissed me lightly on the lips in passing. I was excited, looking forward to more of that later. There was a knock at the door. I opened the door -- a young woman stood there, I was young too in this dream. She had a newspaper clipping which she showed me. Something to do with the ex. She was upset and she said he had lied to her. To backtrack, before I answered the door I was doing some sort of job in this group. I remember thinking, it is bullshit not to try to help people. I was supposed to have boundaries and just advise people in their job, but I got involved and helped them get things done. I woke up at the door.
In the dream, the sensation was that the weather was warm and sunny. Everyone was wearing shorts. It was very pleasant, same pleasant, relaxed feeling.
Overstepping Boundaries: Vaccination/AIDS
2:T germs – not touching anything in a public bathroom.
2: T Malaria vaccine. Stuff in vaccinations worse than disease.
2: T vaccination is not immunization.
3: T they tried to vaccine people in Africa, people forced at gunpoint. Nigeria or Malawi. In Africa they are very suspicious of vaccinations
3-T Thabo Mbeki got into political trouble for questioning AIDS – is it real. He thought it was a reflection of poverty – not a disease on its own. Figures of numbers of cases are inflated to get funding
2: T Because of Haiti’s history of colonization and the AIDS epidemic, it is a place very much in the syphilitic miasm
Master Prover: T Jacques Pepin book on Origin of AIDS in which it is alleged that vaccinations were the original vector for spreading AIDS in Africa
3- T food production -- germ theory as opposed to hygiene theory
Master Prover: T “Contagion” movie.
Death/zombies/horror/the dead
3: T they tried to vaccine people in Africa, people forced at gunpoint. Nigeria or Malawi. In Africa they are very suspicious of vaccinations
1:1
I dreamed I was with a group of people, we all belonged to an organization or religion, something like that, or a group that worked together. We were on the beach, gathering driftwood. Then we were in a house and I was getting ready for a date later with my ex [who in real life has died]. I remember he was part of the group. He kissed me lightly on the lips in passing. I was excited, looking forward to more of that later. There was a knock at the door. I opened the door -- a young woman stood there, I was young too in this dream. She had a newspaper clipping which she showed me. Something to do with the ex. She was upset and she said he had lied to her. To backtrack, before I answered the door I was doing some sort of job in this group. I remember thinking, it is bullshit not to try to help people. I was supposed to have boundaries and just advise people in their job, but I got involved and helped them get things done. I woke up at the door.
In the dream, the sensation was that the weather was warm and sunny. Everyone was wearing shorts. It was very pleasant, same pleasant, relaxed feeling.
2:1 Dream: watching a movie with commercials, at a theater. Dad and son in attached chairs. Dad in front ascending first into the air, up a wire. It felt dangerous, punishment or execution imminent. Watching faces on ascent. Dad’s hand swelled up huge (I knew he was imagining it). Then his face shrunk, narrow, his eyes stayed big. I was thinking, I know this remedy: cherry. The movie mom underneath the chairs – big hands, tiny head. Then a commercial for another movie, a girl, singing “I’m not hot.” She was all made up but hated herself. Also in there visiting at my homeopath, but it was still a movie. A teenage girl isolating herself, cant deal with people, goes to room and says, “I’m desperate enough already.” Her closet is not that of a teen, alarmingly neat, fastidious. I know this remedy again: aurum. We are all worried for her.
2:9 slept poorly, had watched a scary video, not typical for me to watch, a British car commercial that never aired, a ghostly white form around a car. Then they find out a year prior someone had died in that spot. But it is a zombie that jumped out. Restless sleep; awake from 1230 til 2 . Dream of dead body in a lake
3: 5 Dream: while asleep in front of TV tuned in to a horror movie, I was in some unfamiliar place. Went outside, a man was being punished by having to lie down and was stepped on by an elephant, after which his guts spurted out onto the ground. I was being followed by someone who may have been the Grim Reaper, although she looked like one of my students. She wore a sign on her chest that seemed to keep a tally of her wins and losses. Every time I turned around in my dream she was there smiling. I did manage to knock her down and make her fall over something, then I think I got away.
2:9 dream of dead body in a lake
2:11 Dream -- Dream of daughter with water and drowning – usual for me but this had a dead body in the water. In the dream she was freaked out, didn’t want to go into the lake
Shit
1: T when she went upstairs, (during C5) had a BM, had a pain during the BM. Gradually stopped. mid-lower below belly button. Chest pain got stronger as well when she came back to table.
1:T had a bowel movement with pain. Pain in mid lower abdomen below belly button.
2: T a pet dog who eats shit
2: T “I cant do that shit – you’re fucking nuts”
2: T “what is this shit?”
2: T “get your poop in a group”
2: mimics her dog eating shit. Usually he eats his poop at home but not outside. Dogs eat cat poop – “fancy feast”
2: T has similar pain in belly, also has to poop.
2: T same pain below belly button, has to poop
1: post T had 2 bms, might need another
1: post T another bm
2: post T stinky loud toots, gassy and bloatey
2: post T big bowel movement, pungent odor, slower, fuller
1:1 feeling of fullness in rectum all day
1:1 urging for BM, only gas
2:1 bloatey, round “pooch” (on abdomen) since waking, no pain. Stinky toots, like boiled cabbage
2:1 lots of pooping.
1:2 two bowel movements in evening, 2nd one loose with sharp pain in lower mid abdomen while passing stool. Pain stopped gradually over a few minutes
1:2 anus feels sore, left side feels raw
1:2 feeling of fullness in rectum, as if needing a bm
1:3 hemorrhoid
1: 3 hemorrhoids and pressure inside rectum, worsening as day goes on, better sitting, worse walking , pain like a deep cut on L side, worse walking down stairs
1: 4 bleeding hemorrhoids; hemorrhoid very swollen feeling
1: 7 pain on BM, lower abdominal discomfort, like something heavy pressing just above pubic bone
1: 7 pressure in the rectum with lots of stomach growling
Connection
1:1
I dreamed I was with a group of people, we all belonged to an organization or religion, something like that, or a group that worked together. We were on the beach, gathering driftwood. Then we were in a house and I was getting ready for a date later with my ex [who in real life has died]. I remember he was part of the group. He kissed me lightly on the lips in passing. I was excited, looking forward to more of that later. There was a knock at the door. I opened the door -- a young woman stood there, I was young too in this dream. She had a newspaper clipping which she showed me. Something to do with the ex. She was upset and she said he had lied to her. To backtrack, before I answered the door I was doing some sort of job in this group. I remember thinking, it is bullshit not to try to help people. I was supposed to have boundaries and just advise people in their job, but I got involved and helped them get things done. I woke up at the door.
In the dream, the sensation was that the weather was warm and sunny. Everyone was wearing shorts. It was very pleasant, same pleasant, relaxed feeling.
2:1
Dream: watching a movie with commercials, at a theater. Dad and son in attached chairs. Dad in front ascending first into the air, up a wire. It felt dangerous, punishment or execution imminent. Watching faces on ascent. Dad’s hand swelled up huge (I knew he was imagining it). Then his face shrunk, narrow, his eyes stayed big. I was thinking, I know this remedy: cherry. The movie mom underneath the chairs – big hands, tiny head. Then a commercial for another movie, a girl, singing “I’m not hot.” She was all made up but hated herself. Also in there visiting at my homeopath, but it was still a movie. A teenage girl isolating herself, cant deal with people, goes to room and says, “I’m desperate enough already.” Her closet is not that of a teen, alarmingly neat, fastidious. I know this remedy again: aurum. We are all worried for her.
3:10 dreamed of an old friend, had to pursue her to reunite. Had to catch up, she was running away. Called her in real life to invite her to a political event. Following advice of dream, persisted in calling her.
2: post proving
“Why is the leaf footed bug named for its tibia? Leaves are like the antenna of a tree and they connect the tree to the environments, photosynthesis. Plants are about relatedness…”
Getting Lost (see 3C trituration notes at end)
3: 1 last night I dreamed that I and my son were traveling through Amish country to see the ---- where we buy fresh food from. We pass by several other farms to get there and we lose our way. We ask for directions. We were almost there when my son gets stopped. There is some sort of security checkpoint like at an airport and for some reason he got stopped.
Pressing pain/pressure
1:T pressing pain in chest, muscular, makes her want to take a deep breath, pressing pain L quad
2: T abdominal pressure lifted now is back.
2: post T slight center pressure/pain
1:2 chest pain, pressing pain mid chest, both sides, causing me to breathe deeply, to expand lungs and chest
1: 3 hemorrhoids and pressure inside rectum
1:4 pressing HA, started in R eye, R eye is tender. HA is as if someone is squeezing area between eyes
1: 7 pain on BM, lower abdominal discomfort, like something heavy pressing just above pubic bone
1: 7 pressure in the rectum with lots of stomach growling
3: 7 had to have my back walked on by son, felt better overall, better from pressure, like he had squeezed all the ickiness out
Mental/Emotional
2: T self judgment and doubt –am I doing this right?
3:T devoid of thoughts, nothing to talk about
3:T have lost vocabulary.
2: post T spacey, difficulty finding right street
1:1 mood improved, more relaxed, untroubled
3:1 got angry with sister and was crying
3: 1 irritable with people, everything annoys, feeling bugged
3:1 concern about acceptance by other people
1: 2 feeling very calm
1: 2 concerned that stepson is getting stressed out with applying to high level colleges; he has developed a rash; spoke to husband and said he should drop an activity. As usual, husband disagreed, saying I don’t know if he is stressed. Instead of arguing about it as I usually would, I was able to let it go and not feel upset.
2: 2 feel slower, more even
3: 2 melancholy
3: 3 melancholy and irritable, want to cry
3: 5 melancholy and irritable with my kids
3:8 stress had me come into work like a tornado
2: 9 had watched a scary video, not typical for me to watch, a British car commercial that never aired, a ghostly white form around a car. Then they find out a year prior someone had died in that spot. But it is a zombie that jumped out.
Generals
1: T itchy on tip of nose, like little hair
1: T really sleepy
1: T Tired
1: T very relaxed
1:T feeling mesmerized by circular motion
2: T yawning
2: T itchy on mouth, left forehead
3:T thumbnails look whiter, moons look bigger
3: T yawning
3: T chilly
3: T really sleepy
3: T chilly
2:1 slept deeply, some tossing, a single cough woke her
2: 1 restless sleep
2: 3 deep sleep
3: 6 cold all day, unable to get warm
3: 7 slept poorly
3: 7 had to have my back walked on by son, felt better overall, better from pressure, like he had squeezed all the ickiness out
2:9 slept poorly, had watched a scary video, not typical for me to watch, a British car commercial that never aired, a ghostly white form around a car. Then they find out a year prior someone had died in that spot. But it is a zombie that jumped out. Restless sleep; awake from 1230 til 2 . Dream of dead body in a lake
3: 13 low energy
Head
1:4 pressing HA, started in R eye, R eye is tender. HA is as if someone is squeezing area between eyes
2:7 Working on a minor headache now…. Between brows and upward on forehead, kinda to the right side
3:8 head congestion and cold symptoms, ribs sore from sneezing
3: 10 head congestion
3: 11 still congested
3:13 headache, left and right sides
Face/Mouth/Nose/Ear
1: T can taste sweetness in back of nose, roof of mouth
1: T sweet taste in mouth
1: T roof of mouth to back of throat feels swollen, raw
1:T increased swallowing
1: T throat sore on both sides, as if starting a cold
2:T itching on face in creases next to mouth down to chin
3:T nose running, itchy
3:T sensation of water on ear, and stinging on outer Left ear
1: post T pale face
1: post T piercing pain like a pin sticking in front of right septum
1: post T sweet taste in back of mouth with nausea
1: 1 sweet taste like saccharine all day with nausea all day
2: 1 woke with stopped left nostril in night
1: 2 throat raw and had to blow nose, nose runny thin and clear; post nasal drip makes me need to clear throat
1:2 sweet saccharine taste in back of mouth
3:2 very congested in head, scratchy throat
3;3 cold is gone
2:4 woke with blocked L nostril
2:5 woke with blocked L nostril
2:6 Stuffy nose, mostly on L
3:7 sneezed all day
3:7 nose running, esp L side. Painful to sneeze.
2:8 woke with stuffed R nostril
3:8 head congestion and cold symptoms, ribs sore from sneezing
3:10 still head congestion
Eye/Vision
1: T pain in L eye socket and over L eye, moved to eyeball
2: T twitchy left eye
3:T thumbnails look whiter, moons look bigger
2:1 – 2:14 on and off twitchy left eye
1:4 pressing HA, started in R eye, R eye is tender. HA is as if someone is squeezing area between eyes
Throat
1:T stifling a cough, throat feels full
1:T coughing, raw, scraping in throat on Right.
1:T throat feels scraped in center
3:T want to cough, throat feels full
3: post T sore throat
3: 1 sore throat
3:1 congested, scratchy throat, has a cold
1: 2 throat raw and had to blow nose
3:2 very congested in head, scratchy throat
Stomach
1: post T sweet taste in back of mouth with nausea
2: post T still upset stomach
1: 1 sweet taste like saccharine all day with nausea all day
2:1 ice cream craving
2:2 ate a pint of ice cream over 2 nights
Abdomen/Rectum/Stool
1:T had a bowel movement with pain. Pain in mid lower abdomen below belly button.
2:T abdominal pressure, fullness
2: T same pain below belly button, has to poop
3:T pain below belly button, in uterus area, feels digestive
2:T digestive pain, feels like sphincters are doing things
1: post T soreness in left lower quadrant
1: post T had 2 bms, might need another
1: post T another bm
2: post T distension in abdomen, center
2: post T stinky loud toots, gassy and bloatey
2: post T big bowel movement, pungent odor, slower, fuller
2: post T slight center pressure/pain
1:1 feeling of fullness in rectum all day
1:1 urging for BM, only gas
1:1 low abdominal cramping
2:1 bloatey, round “pooch” (on abdomen) since waking, no pain. Stinky toots, like boiled cabbage
2:1 lots of pooping.
1:2 two bowel movements in evening, 2nd one loose with sharp pain in lower mid abdomen while passing stool. Pain stopped gradually over a few minutes
1:2 anus feels sore, left side feels raw
1:2 feeling of fullness in rectum, as if needing a bm
2:2 bloatey, gurgly eructations
1:3 hemorrhoid
1: 3 hemorrhoids and pressure inside rectum, worsening as day goes on, better sitting, worse walking , pain like a deep cut on L side, worse walking down stairs
2: 3 bloatey after dinner
1: 4 bleeding hemorrhoids; hemorrhoid very swollen feeling
1: 7 pain on BM, lower abdominal discomfort, like something heavy pressing just above pubic bone
1: 7 pressure in the rectum with lots of stomach growling
Extremities
1: T left quad pressing pain
3: T left quad pressing pain
3: T quick spasm in L leg, shooting from thigh to knee
3:5 fingers feel as they have paper cuts all over them
3:8 ribs sore from sneezing
3: 12 left wrist pain
3: 13 left wrist and shoulder pain
3: 14 left wrist pain
Chest
1:T pressing pain like something pressing on front of chest, both sides
1:1 more chest pain
1:2 chest pain, pressing pain mid chest, both sides, causing me to breathe deeply, to expand lungs and chest
Cough
3: 5 developed a deep cough that lasted most of evening
3: 6 dry deep cough all day
Dreams
1:1 I dreamed I was with a group of people, we all belonged to an organization or religion, something like that, or a group that worked together. We were on the beach, gathering driftwood. Then we were in a house and I was getting ready for a date later with my ex [who in real life has died]. I remember he was part of the group. He kissed me lightly on the lips in passing. I was excited, looking forward to more of that later. There was a knock at the door. I opened the door -- a young woman stood there, I was young too in this dream. She had a newspaper clipping which she showed me. Something to do with the ex. She was upset and she said he had lied to her. To backtrack, before I answered the door I was doing some sort of job in this group. I remember thinking, it is bullshit not to try to help people. I was supposed to have boundaries and just advise people in their job, but I got involved and helped them get things done. I woke up at the door.
In the dream, the sensation was that the weather was warm and sunny. Everyone was wearing shorts. It was very pleasant, same pleasant, relaxed feeling.
2:1 Dream: watching a movie with commercials, at a theater. Dad and son in attached chairs. Dad in front ascending first into the air, up a wire. It felt dangerous, punishment or execution imminent. Watching faces on ascent. Dad’s hand swelled up huge (I knew he was imagining it). Then his face shrunk, narrow, his eyes stayed big. I was thinking, I know this remedy: cherry. The movie mom underneath the chairs – big hands, tiny head. Then a commercial for another movie, a girl, singing “I’m not hot.” She was all made up but hated herself. Also in there visiting at my homeopath, but it was still a movie. A teenage girl isolating herself, cant deal with people, goes to room and says, “I’m desperate enough already.” Her closet is not that of a teen, alarmingly neat, fastidious. I know this remedy again: aurum. We are all worried for her.
3:1 last night I dreamed that I and my son were traveling through Amish country to see the ---- where we buy fresh food from. We pass by several other farms to get there and we lose our way. We ask for directions. We were almost there when my son gets stopped. There is some sort of security checkpoint like at an airport and for some reason he got stopped.
3: 5 Dream: while asleep in front of TV tuned in to a horror movie, I was in some unfamiliar place. Went outside, a man was being punished by having to lie down and was stepped on by an elephant, after which his guts spurted out onto the ground. I was being followed by someone who may have been the Grim Reaper, although she looked like one of my students. She wore a sign on her chest that seemed to keep a tally of her wins and losses. Every time I turned around in my dream she was there smiling. I did manage to knock her down and make her fall over something, then I think I got away.
2:9 dream of dead body in a lake
3:10 dreamed of an old friend, had to pursue her to reunite. Had to catch up, she was running away. Called her in real life to invite her to a political event. Following advice of dream, persisted in calling her.
2:11 Dream -- Dream of daughter with water and drowning – usual for me but this had a dead body in the water. In the dream she was freaked out, didn’t want to go into the lake
3: 13 dreamed of going through rooms in house and redecorating. House not the same house I live in
Misc
3:8 Found out student in dream is in fact pregnant
Notes from initial 3C trituration:
P’s phone freezes up
Hot and dizzy, nauseous, difficulty reading the clock. Right trap and upper arm are sore, headache-temples
Trouble adding minutes on clock
Big burping!!
Restless
Nauseous, feels like it’s a struggle, uncoordinated, hard to grind, move coordinated.
P is hungry. C is yawning.
Rt side joint muscle pain-rubbing helps-C, right side neck is stiff, better rolling out neck. Feeling content, peaceful calm-C. Heat burping-P. Right top head fleeing pain,
Feeling lightheaded, tired.
P is really hungry, she is grinding and burping… Sensation of P’s mouth is disconnected from her body. That I am all these disparate parts. My arm is disconnected. Hunger but gurgling in my stomach.
Discussing ”whether we suck everything out of the fridge”. Burping and hungry at the same time.
Feeling of rolling in the stomach. Grooving with scraping. Burping lots (big three times)
P feels very unemotional. Wants to go to sleep, wants cucumber.
Prepares a plate of vegetables—cucumbers, carrots, green and red tomatoes, white balsamic vinegar, salt and pepper, feta. Very uncharacteristic. Food tastes really good. Averse red tomato, like green tomatoes, cukes taste especially good.
Food tasted very alive, heightened taste, orgasmic eating. P JUST WANTS TO EAT.
P is burping (we are laughing). Feel a little high. For C the cucumber does not taste great but bitter, old. The noise of the car (outside) is loud and its scares us.
The sun has come out. It is like I don’t have a care in the world (da de da de da de do) (music note drawing). Who cares about anything? Child like
Desires green and white food.
Bopping, childish, young, light
Got cold, had to put on sweater.
Burping, this is a light bug, it feels happy and light. C is sneezing. Moving back and forth, side to side while sitting on my heels. Farting. Itchy right ring finger. Moving up and down—head—very small movements. P is very cold. Having a problem with numbers.
Eating again, yumm!, carrots, rocking, cold.
After the 3C trituration and the two provers parted, one had a panic inducing experience of getting lost. She doubted whether she could find the right street and asked herself, am I doing this right? She couldn't find her way out, and had no ability to sense direction or navigate. She felt trapped-- hence the panic-- that she couldn't find the right street.
